Sep 12, 2004 22:32
so lately i feel like my life has been a big waste. i havent done anything that i am proud of anything that i can feel accomplished. my life has been a total drag, everything from this point back. yes ive had some great times with different people and experiences, but i wish i could go back and change a bunch of my descions. but i can tell you one thing from now on i plan on making my life have some sort of meaning.
lets start with my family. ive never gotten along with my mom so well we have always clashed from day one. when i was a little girl getting into fights over keeping my shoes on and off. to now when we fight over anything and everything. dont get my wrong i love my mom more than anything i just wish we could have a great relationship like most mothers and daughters do. but i must say up untill today we havent gotten into a major fight for a few months. my father has always been a different story ive felt like he was someone who was much easier to get along with than my mom. but from here on out im going to try and have the best relationship with my parents that we can possibly have.
now my friends...ive had many through the years some have came and gone. some have came and gone and come back. and some have just never really been there. but i am glad for the friends i have now who care about me. thats what im so grateful for someone you can just give your feelings out and trust them with them. thanks guys for being here for me you know who you are!
relationships...ive always been a failure at relationships i cant think of one thats come out great. ive come out of them with knowledge of myself and other people, so i guess that i have benifited from them in some ways. but i just always seem to be the one who gets hurt. all i really want is someone who truely loves and cares about me for who i am, and not what i do. and to be honest i dont know if i will ever find that. i feel like i have to much baggage from past ones. i guess ill have to see what happens years down the road from now.
i guess thats enough for now...
im just gonna leave you guys with one question...everyone who reads this answer it..
do you think two people can stay in love forever? and do you think that saying i love you after youve been with someone for 20+ years is like saying cheese sandwich?