"its the wrong time.."

[thewrldwilclash]

"i got no excuse..is that alright, yeah?"
i feel like bawling.
for a moment i felt like i didnt know why.
but then i realized..

im scared of too many things.
i messed up too many things.
ive been wanting to..
i feel like i want to start my life over. at times.
i always think about what i would do differently.
sometimes i think i did the wrong thing.
and that i took the wrong way. i was never good enough.

and im nervous. about everything.
and my stomach wont settle.
and i just want someone here to give me hug and tell me
"youre gonna do it. you can do this."
i want to go back.
try again.

im tired of failing.
i just want you to be happy.
i want everything to be right.
i want everyone to be happy.
i want to prove i can succeed.
i want to bear your pain.
i want to do well.
i want to change the world.

who knows.