the room is dark, but it's so bright out.

[thewrldwilclash]

"i am thinking about [him]. I am thinking about [him] even though
i don't want to think about [him]. I am thinking about [him] because
i can't forget [him], because i continue to look back at [him].
[He] is the only one. i can't let go of what once was and what will
never be again. i can't face the fact that [he] is gone. i can't face
that it was me who drove [him] away. i was with [him]. i drove [him]
away. i am thinking about [him] even though i don't want to think
about [him]."

"She inhales, stares at me. My instinct is to look away, but i dont.
Yeah. Tell me something. All right. Why are you here? Here at this
place or here with you? Either one. I don't know. She smiles. That's
a good answer. My instinct is to look away, but I don't. I speak.
Why are you here? She smiles. Here at this place or here with you?
I smile. Either."

"looking back hurts too much, so i just keep going."
-a million little pieces

this hurts. everything hurts.
im scared to go. im scared to watch you go.
im terrified of losing you.
please. dont let me lose you.

sigh. this is all my fault.