when everything is wrong...

[thewrldwilclash]

i dont know.
this is my biggest regret.
forgotten already.
i was holding on.
because i never wanted to let go.
i never did.
i couldnt handle everything.
i caved.
and lost.
big time.
now i jump and smile when my phone goes off.
but im a fool.
i tried to not seem like one.
but i know i am.
my head is pounding.
and i want so badly for things to be how they were.
when i couldnt keep a smile off of my face.
when i knew i had something worth fighting for.
but i lost the fight.
big time.
onwards. already.
and im stuck.
nothing better. i know it.
i know there isnt.
it hurts.
im fucking dumb.
im never right.
i ruin everything.
isnt that the truth?
isnt that what you told me?
i hate this.
and its all my fault.