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I've moved. You're welcome to join me. :)
drapeaux_girl
I couldnt stand it in here anymore. I feel really self absorbed and it's hard to break out of that unless I delete the whole journal. But there are some things I want to keep; so I'm moving, instead.
I said some really provoking things to James recently. I dont know why I did it. I do that sometimes. I guess to see how someone responds to my craziness. And his response failed miserably. Though I cant totally blame him, because I was wretched. ...I feel like a horrible person this morning...
So I'm going to cool it for awhile.
The bottom line is (everything else is secondary) that I think it was totally irresponsible (I'm to blame as well) to begin a relationship after 2 months, when he knew that he was going to be deployed for over a year.
I dont know how anybody expected that to work. I dont know if I want to keep trying, or if I just want to pitch it. I think things would have been very different, had we known each other longer than 3 months before he left.
That's not fair to him. But it's not fair to me, to expect me to stay the same exact person I was when he left.
drapeaux_girl
I couldnt stand it in here anymore. I feel really self absorbed and it's hard to break out of that unless I delete the whole journal. But there are some things I want to keep; so I'm moving, instead.
I said some really provoking things to James recently. I dont know why I did it. I do that sometimes. I guess to see how someone responds to my craziness. And his response failed miserably. Though I cant totally blame him, because I was wretched. ...I feel like a horrible person this morning...
So I'm going to cool it for awhile.
The bottom line is (everything else is secondary) that I think it was totally irresponsible (I'm to blame as well) to begin a relationship after 2 months, when he knew that he was going to be deployed for over a year.
I dont know how anybody expected that to work. I dont know if I want to keep trying, or if I just want to pitch it. I think things would have been very different, had we known each other longer than 3 months before he left.
That's not fair to him. But it's not fair to me, to expect me to stay the same exact person I was when he left.