Aurificium Magica

[thewishfire]

I keep thinking about my name. Or, I guess it's not really my name as such, just the name that was mistakenly given to me when everyone thought I was Theofratus' son. Aurelius. I thought about just dropping it-- I even told sensei she could take it off my records. After all, I'm a Mana. Mana don't generally have last names, although I guess there's

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[exceedinglife]

...Speaking of names, what's with all the fancy titles lately?

[pillarofruin]

I personally believe in my language reflecting the reverence I feel towards my Mana, so I prefer to address them with a high level of respect... Vayne-sama wanted to do the same to me, but I prefer the inequality, as I believe it's a true reflection of the nature of things. He is a transcended being here to guide me in my own mortal toils, and I find it only fitting to lower myself before him... It feels right, and I derive more joy from that than I ever could from his using fancy titles back on me.

Roxis, on the other hand, didn't tell him not to, I think.

[exceedinglife]

Aha, I see.... It's really very beautiful that you can look at him like that. It was a bit odd at first, but thinking about that and hearing you say it, it's a little easier for me to think of him as... as what he really is.

...Vayne-sama. That our workshopmate could be someone who would deserve such a title.... I think I'm still a little shocked.

[strivinghigher]

I think we all are.

[exceedinglife]

It must have blown your mind when you saw him that night and you realised the person you'd hated was... well, I guess everything you'd ever wanted, it seems like. The way your relationship just turned around so fast.... You must've had whiplash just from the perspective change.

I know what it's like to fall for someone you never quite realised you liked before, but.... I've never known anyone's issues with someone just... melt like that. I know it's logical once you realise what he is, but it must have felt so weird for you....

[strivinghigher]

It didn't even feel like the issues themselves melted-- it felt like they turned around on me. Whiplash from the perspective change is a good way to put it. One moment, I was so angry, so disgusted, so frustrated that he had everything I ever wanted. And then I looked at him that night and I realised that he was everything I ever wanted. That all this time, while I wanted to be where he was, he was so close to the thing I was chasing that he had become it... I wasn't chasing behind him and wanting to be like him; I was chasing him and wanting him...

[exceedinglife]

That sounds like it had to have been pretty incredible. To see what you wanted just... materialise in front of you, in the light of firewater and understanding. To be able to hold it. To be able to touch it....

...It's got to be incredible when you're together. If that's how you feel about him....

[strivinghigher]

It... it was. Even if it did make you go and post in allcaps about it.

It is. Oh gods, I can't even begin to tell you how incredible. It's like... I thought the Mana of Light burnt fiercely, and she does, but this, this... it's like the Azoth itself in my arms...

[exceedinglife]

Hehe.... To be fair, I was high myself. ...To be fairer, I probably would have done it if I hadn't been. High or sober, I don't think anyone was prepared for you embracing him so sweetly.

...I don't even know what to say to that. It just sounds so, so amazing. I don't see Vayne that way, but still, the concept behind it would give anyone the shivers....

[strivinghigher]

Least of all myself... heh.

It is. It does. There just aren't words... it's not that words fail me, it's that there aren't any.