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philip: i wont be at pb my senior year...
me: no...yes you are
philip: i dont think so...
me: yes...you are
philip: ... :(
me: you can go to bayside for ur junior year..but senior year is here
philip: i love you melissa
me :-(
philip: you make me want to stay...so bad...and every time i talk to you about it i want to stay more and more...its one of the hardest decisions ive everr faced me: ...
me: so then don't talk to me
me: maybe it'll make it easier for a little while
philip: no...i want to stay...i want to talk to you
philip: just thinking about you
philip: it makes me think twice about it...i need you...youre my best friend...
me: ...
me: i love you too
me: but i can't make the decision for you
philip: i know that...
philip: everytime i think about it...i compare what i have at both schools...and all i really have at palm bay is you and tiffany...but thats enough to make me want to stay
*a:few:lines*
philip: if i stay there will be some trouble...if i go, itll be worse...i just have to decide based on where id be better off...and thats hard to decide...i mean, i dont know which is better...both options seem really good
philip: but by choosing one...i leave the other philip: if i go...i lose you and tiffany...i dont want that to ever happen
me: well...you can't let them down
me: they really love you
philip: but i cant let you down either
philip: i really love you
me: its ok phil, i really understand
philip: no...its not ok...
philip: i dont know if i can go...its so hard on me...
me: well we're still gonna see each other even if you do go
philip: ...we never even see each other now...i only see you about 5 seconds a day...but even that, i dont want to lose it
*a:few:lines*
me: yea...i'm just happy ur not leaving
philip: yeah...me too
philip: i wouldn't be able to handle something like that
philip: i feel like i have finally found somewhere i can be happy...with people that i really love
me: well those people really love you back
philip: i love you so much, melissa
me: :-D i love you too philip
philip: :-D
philip: you mean so much to me
*a:few:lines
philip: it makes me cry to think of leaving you...
me: you'll get over it phil...sometime you're gonna wake up and the school that you need to go to is gonna pop in your head
philip: im afraid that i wont get to see you
me: you will...we have to
me: theres the possibility that we wont...i hate to think about it...buti could possibly never see you this summer...or next year...or even for the rest of my life...and to think of that is just...it hurts
*a:few:lines*
me: this is so sad...i love you so much
philip: i know...i love you too
philip: if i come back to palm bay for my senior year...graduating is going to be the hardest, saddest day of my entire life
me: ok but it will be with us
philip: thats why its going to be so hard and sad...its how i want it to be...
philip: i want to be with my real friends
philip: with the people i love
philip: and with the people who love me
me: i love you..
philip: i love you too
philip: ill never forget you...not ever... philip: youre the best friend i have ever had...thank you for always being here...ill always love you no matter what.
thats so sad! i love my philip paul dearly...i'm gonna miss you soo much. and i can't even see him alot over the summer. its too busy! the only bla time i have is after july 13th.
i now have a star on my left hand..looking so awesome. i can't wait till its gone and i have the scar left to look at. my cross is beautiful
i had nothing to do tonight-but tomorrow i making plans to make plans. getting dropped off at veronica's babysitter's house and help her for a few hours. then possibly hanging out with neil. maybe philip. i love you guys.
night