til the birds return for spring cleaning
This weekend is all about spring cleaning of my mind, body and home. I spent almost all day cleaning the apartment and organizing my room. This morning when I started, it was so daunting to even think about tackling the mess in my room. I really let things fall into chaos in the past couple months. It's midnight now and I'm taking a break until the morning, but I feel quite accomplished surveying all I've done today! It feels really good to have an organized living space again. Lately I've been feeling a lot of mental, spiritual and PHYSICAL clutter, all of which I'm actively working to reduce.
This is the time in the pagan year when we look toward the light and new life of spring. It's about purifying the soul and clearing out any baggage that's holding you back. This year, I find this to be particularly important.
In April, I'll be 24. I was telling my roommate yesterday that 24 seems like the official start of adulthood. Sure, you're technically an adult at 18 -- and I can't speak for everyone, because some people have to grow up fast -- but I think 18-22 is still a time of adolescence, especially if those are college years. Age 23 was like an interim time between childhood and adulthood for me. I spent a lot of time fucking around and disregarding responsibilities, as I did in my youth, but I also worked to get my life more together than it's ever been before (even if I still have a long way to go).
As spring approaches and my 24th birthday is on the horizon, I see now that it's time for me to step it up and really become a productive, functioning, independent member of society. That's why spring cleaning of the mind and home became such a priority for me.
I mentioned a couple entries ago that I felt spiritually bankrupt. In the past two weeks, the situation in my personal life and the impact it was having on my emotional well-being came to a head. I became so overwhelmed that I realized all I could do was rid myself of the negative energies.
There were a several people I had to cut loose and a lot of bad habits to break. I thought that ending these relationships would be much more difficult than it was, but after only a couple days without certain people in my life it became clear just how toxic they were.
Cutting out the negative relationships was the easy part -- making better decisions has proven to be a bit more difficult. But I'm working at it and I'm succeeding. I've felt more at peace in the last few days than I have in ages, and I no longer feel that something is missing spiritually. In fact, I feel like my spiritual journey is just beginning. I know it's almost the end of February, but spiritual growth and fulfillment is truly my resolution for the new year.
This is the time in the pagan year when we look toward the light and new life of spring. It's about purifying the soul and clearing out any baggage that's holding you back. This year, I find this to be particularly important.
In April, I'll be 24. I was telling my roommate yesterday that 24 seems like the official start of adulthood. Sure, you're technically an adult at 18 -- and I can't speak for everyone, because some people have to grow up fast -- but I think 18-22 is still a time of adolescence, especially if those are college years. Age 23 was like an interim time between childhood and adulthood for me. I spent a lot of time fucking around and disregarding responsibilities, as I did in my youth, but I also worked to get my life more together than it's ever been before (even if I still have a long way to go).
As spring approaches and my 24th birthday is on the horizon, I see now that it's time for me to step it up and really become a productive, functioning, independent member of society. That's why spring cleaning of the mind and home became such a priority for me.
I mentioned a couple entries ago that I felt spiritually bankrupt. In the past two weeks, the situation in my personal life and the impact it was having on my emotional well-being came to a head. I became so overwhelmed that I realized all I could do was rid myself of the negative energies.
There were a several people I had to cut loose and a lot of bad habits to break. I thought that ending these relationships would be much more difficult than it was, but after only a couple days without certain people in my life it became clear just how toxic they were.
Cutting out the negative relationships was the easy part -- making better decisions has proven to be a bit more difficult. But I'm working at it and I'm succeeding. I've felt more at peace in the last few days than I have in ages, and I no longer feel that something is missing spiritually. In fact, I feel like my spiritual journey is just beginning. I know it's almost the end of February, but spiritual growth and fulfillment is truly my resolution for the new year.