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There are times when I yearn to retreat from everything because I feel so alone in spite of all I have.
You think I care so much, and most of the time I think so too, but sometimes I wonder how real it actually is. If all of this was stripped away from me, what would be left? Who would I be, and would it really be so bad?
On a good day, I would answer, "Yes -- I don't know what I'd do."
On a bad day, like today, I tell myself that it'd simply be routine.
Routine sadness. Routine boredom. Routine destruction.
How do you feel about that?
I say I don't like the idea of being saved because if I need someone else to do it, I was never really that strong. I didn't want you to rescue me, but maybe I accidentally let you. So I feel helpless, like you could take everything away too easily. I can't let you do that. Maybe sometimes I try to do it before you have the chance.
You see, I'm just trying to protect myself. Please tell me how wrong I am.
You think I care so much, and most of the time I think so too, but sometimes I wonder how real it actually is. If all of this was stripped away from me, what would be left? Who would I be, and would it really be so bad?
On a good day, I would answer, "Yes -- I don't know what I'd do."
On a bad day, like today, I tell myself that it'd simply be routine.
Routine sadness. Routine boredom. Routine destruction.
How do you feel about that?
I say I don't like the idea of being saved because if I need someone else to do it, I was never really that strong. I didn't want you to rescue me, but maybe I accidentally let you. So I feel helpless, like you could take everything away too easily. I can't let you do that. Maybe sometimes I try to do it before you have the chance.
You see, I'm just trying to protect myself. Please tell me how wrong I am.