songs that describe it all.
Everclear ~ Santa Monica
I am still living with your ghost
Lonely and dreaming of the west coast
I don't want to be your downtime
I don't want to be your stupid game
With my big black boots and an old suitcase
I do believe I'll find myself a new place
I don't want to be the bad guy
I don't want to do your sleepwalk dance anymore
I just want to see some palm trees
Go and try to shake away this disease
We can live beside the ocean
Leave the fire behind
Swim out past the breakers
Watch the world die
I am still dreaming of your face
Hungry and hollow for all the things you took away
I don't want to be your good time
I don't want to be your fall-back crutch anymore
I'll walk right out into a brand new day
Insane and rising in my own weird way
I don't want to be the bad guy
I don't want to do your sleepwalk dance anymore
I just want to feel some sunshine
I just want to find some place to be alone
We can live beside the ocean
Leave the fire behind
Swim out past the breakers
And watch the world die
Everclear ~ Everything to Everyone
You put yourself in stupid places
Yes I think you know it's true
Situations where it's easy to look down on you
I think you like to be the victim
I think you like to be in pain
I think you make yourself a victim
Almost every single day
You do what you do
You say what they say
You try to be everything to everyone
You know all the right people
You play all the right games
You always try to be
Everything to everyone
Yeah you do it again
You always do it again
You say they taught you how to read and write
Yeah, they taught you how to count
I say they taught you how to buy and sell
Your own body by the pound
I think you like to be their simple toy
I think you love to play the clown
I think you are blind to the fact
That the hand you hold is the hand that holds you down
You do what you do
You say what they say
You always try to be everything to everyone
You know all the right people
You play all the right games
You always try to be everything to everyone
Spin around and fall down, do it again
You stumble and you fall
Yeah why don't you ever learn
Spin around and fall down, do it again
Yeah, you stumble and you fall
I wonder if you will ever learn
Why won't you ever learn
Come on now, do that stupid dance for me
You do what they tell you to do
You say what they say
You try to be everything to everyone
You jump through the big hoop
You play all the right games
You try to be everything to everyone
Spin around and fall down, do it again
You stumble and you fall
Yeah you do it again
Spin around and fall down, do it again
You stumble and you fall
i've been listening to those among other things all day long. i can't take this. i need to get out. i need to get away..i need to leave....
i didn't go to sleep last night. i passed out around 5 oclock from utter exhaustion. i could go to sleep. i talked to a few people, but it wasn't helping. i wrote a new poem(see last entry) and i watched Ever After. then i was in a fetal position for about a half hour if i remember right, just clutching my pillow and feeling sorry for myself. that's how i woke up at 830 this morning, sore inside and out, and an hour and 30 minutes late to work already. it took me an hour to get ready and into work. i just went through the rest of my day until about half an hour ago in a complete daze.
i am SICK of people having reasons to apologize to me. it's nice that people care enough to bother, BUT STOP CREATING THE REASONS TO SAY IT IN THE FIRST PLACE.
I am still living with your ghost
Lonely and dreaming of the west coast
I don't want to be your downtime
I don't want to be your stupid game
With my big black boots and an old suitcase
I do believe I'll find myself a new place
I don't want to be the bad guy
I don't want to do your sleepwalk dance anymore
I just want to see some palm trees
Go and try to shake away this disease
We can live beside the ocean
Leave the fire behind
Swim out past the breakers
Watch the world die
I am still dreaming of your face
Hungry and hollow for all the things you took away
I don't want to be your good time
I don't want to be your fall-back crutch anymore
I'll walk right out into a brand new day
Insane and rising in my own weird way
I don't want to be the bad guy
I don't want to do your sleepwalk dance anymore
I just want to feel some sunshine
I just want to find some place to be alone
We can live beside the ocean
Leave the fire behind
Swim out past the breakers
And watch the world die
Everclear ~ Everything to Everyone
You put yourself in stupid places
Yes I think you know it's true
Situations where it's easy to look down on you
I think you like to be the victim
I think you like to be in pain
I think you make yourself a victim
Almost every single day
You do what you do
You say what they say
You try to be everything to everyone
You know all the right people
You play all the right games
You always try to be
Everything to everyone
Yeah you do it again
You always do it again
You say they taught you how to read and write
Yeah, they taught you how to count
I say they taught you how to buy and sell
Your own body by the pound
I think you like to be their simple toy
I think you love to play the clown
I think you are blind to the fact
That the hand you hold is the hand that holds you down
You do what you do
You say what they say
You always try to be everything to everyone
You know all the right people
You play all the right games
You always try to be everything to everyone
Spin around and fall down, do it again
You stumble and you fall
Yeah why don't you ever learn
Spin around and fall down, do it again
Yeah, you stumble and you fall
I wonder if you will ever learn
Why won't you ever learn
Come on now, do that stupid dance for me
You do what they tell you to do
You say what they say
You try to be everything to everyone
You jump through the big hoop
You play all the right games
You try to be everything to everyone
Spin around and fall down, do it again
You stumble and you fall
Yeah you do it again
Spin around and fall down, do it again
You stumble and you fall
i've been listening to those among other things all day long. i can't take this. i need to get out. i need to get away..i need to leave....
i didn't go to sleep last night. i passed out around 5 oclock from utter exhaustion. i could go to sleep. i talked to a few people, but it wasn't helping. i wrote a new poem(see last entry) and i watched Ever After. then i was in a fetal position for about a half hour if i remember right, just clutching my pillow and feeling sorry for myself. that's how i woke up at 830 this morning, sore inside and out, and an hour and 30 minutes late to work already. it took me an hour to get ready and into work. i just went through the rest of my day until about half an hour ago in a complete daze.
i am SICK of people having reasons to apologize to me. it's nice that people care enough to bother, BUT STOP CREATING THE REASONS TO SAY IT IN THE FIRST PLACE.