Aug 12, 2003 23:39
"it would be muy unpleasant for me chica, you dying n what not. i still care about you a whole lot. i wish things could have went differently, but they didn't. i'm sorry i'm so uninteresting. i wish i could have attracted you emotionally. looking at neal, i don't know why you were attracted to me physically. i don't understand why any girl would be interested in me. shit. i'm running out of space.. [our eyes]
i want to be friends, but a part of me is still wanting to be more. eventually that part will die off. i know it will. i've had it happen before. was it that birthday card that threw you off? i know it was a bit over the top, but i am glad you were born. everybody has faults, and despite yours, you are a really great person. you'll make a good friend if i give myself some time. shit.... [our eyes]
i keep running out of space. i so need someone to screw me right now. i'm not talking about love. with my last few encounters, i'm beginning to think i'll never find it. holy shit. look, i'm drunk as hell right now, and i apologize if anything i say bothers you. i wanted to jump you in the movie theater n screw your brains out right there n then. you are so god damn hot.... [our eyes]
i don't even know that you'd be interested. i don't even know if you'd find me attractive. i don't know what's wrong with me. i make some good, steadfast friends. and then other people are such assholes to me. i wish we still had a chance at having what i see so many people with today, but it's like totally nil. i hope you at least think of me as an interestign friend... [our eyes]
and i hope the least it does is stay that way. shit. you might just want to delete all of that. see if i f**king care anymore. people don't give a shit about what i say anyway. nobody f**king listens. sorry for taking up space.
Dan, your lonely ex-boyfriend(now just friend) who just wants somebody to love him for him.
i sound f**king depressed, don't i? [our eyes]"
JE$SUS FUCKING CHRIST!!! FUCKING PASTE BUTTON INSTEAD OF THE COPY BUTTON SO I"D STILL HAVE ALL THAT SHIT I JUST WROTE INCASE MOZILLA CRASHED. GOD DAMN CUNT MONKEYS!!!!! i am drunk as a skunk right now, and that (not above, but above above) was a mutliple post in my ex-girlfriend turned friends journal. shit and fucking damn, i forgot what i said in the other one. i wish i had someone to hold me....
this song is so fucking awesome.