another one of those speaches of his
ok its Tuesday night and... I am about to die of alcohol poisoning. This is because I am so desperate to leave this place and get so shitfaced that my blood is turning into alcohol just to keep me from crying about it. yeah I know I sound whiney but hell at least Im consistent. Well Im going to die of alcohol poisoning or die because I am just ready to kill anything right now, even a bear with tatoos and rides a Harley (when you think about it bears+ tatoos+ Harley= very scary and intimidating) yeah Im ready for some bear fights and Im not going to play dead either Im gonna head butt that whore. yeah Im ready for anything.Ill even take down an invisible ninja (when you think about it anything invisible is ultra dangerous but ESPECIALLY a ninja). So Im ready to get all my rage/boredom/energy out on anything that tries to attack me. I think the sandwhich is plotting something with the salt shaker, they have been eyeing me all night from across the table, I dont trust them, they make a vicious and yet tasty foe. But yeah so luckily Colin is gone for a lil while so he wont get too hurt tonight. Butch is around here somewhere but he is no threat. Ok yeah I know I sound really out of it and this is why...
I watched Neon Genesis Evangelion again and once again I question everything that I know. This anime series has once again gone and fucked with my head and I cant be more happier (well I could if I was drunk but Im not *insert frowny face*). Yeah once again I question is there a higher being (ehhh Im set there is a God but still to think there isnt *shudders*) I question if anythin like love, hate, or any feeling whatsoever matters. This anime is still fucking with my head and it is amazing! To think is a human process and instinct, and nothing brings me more happiness than thinking that everything I know I dont. To have this feeling is scarey and thrilling. It makes my heart beat faster, my brain think faster, my legs shake faster, and my eyes believe nothing. Just think for one second and realize what would you do if everything you knew, was erased and you were set with another set of freedom and facts. Well human instinct would tell you to adapt but most of us would in fact cry and never want to live in such a world. Well this is my world. I want to live in another world where I know nothing because I, as a human being want to learn more than I can and understand what I can not. I would push my boundaries and keep pushing until those boundaries were broken because I would know no such restrictions because my mind is opened and closed at the very same time. It would be a world fit fot strictly kings and commoners and I asure my friend I would not be a commoner. It boggles my mind if such a world exist and it makes my mouth water. Yep this is what a single anime has done to me and nothing better could have happened to me. My mind is always in overdrive and you would think it would suck but it doesnt. Its a challenge that I accepted and Im improving myself on it. Agreed I sound more arrogant now and Im sure Ill come across as a huge Elitest (which I am)and Im sure cocky, weird, and mad scientist have crossed your minds already. And that is my point. I am thought provoking and this what I want. I will admit it is very immature but it is also very pleasent that a simple cartoon when thought about heavily can do this to a person. I can now read people for the horrible human beings they are. I can tell a lie from anyone and lie back and they would never know. I can be evil and have no remorse to whatever I do because I have opened my mind to almost anything and everything and this is what people call crazy, perhaps I am crazy, but if you read my statements carefully, isnt there truth in my madness??
I watched Neon Genesis Evangelion again and once again I question everything that I know. This anime series has once again gone and fucked with my head and I cant be more happier (well I could if I was drunk but Im not *insert frowny face*). Yeah once again I question is there a higher being (ehhh Im set there is a God but still to think there isnt *shudders*) I question if anythin like love, hate, or any feeling whatsoever matters. This anime is still fucking with my head and it is amazing! To think is a human process and instinct, and nothing brings me more happiness than thinking that everything I know I dont. To have this feeling is scarey and thrilling. It makes my heart beat faster, my brain think faster, my legs shake faster, and my eyes believe nothing. Just think for one second and realize what would you do if everything you knew, was erased and you were set with another set of freedom and facts. Well human instinct would tell you to adapt but most of us would in fact cry and never want to live in such a world. Well this is my world. I want to live in another world where I know nothing because I, as a human being want to learn more than I can and understand what I can not. I would push my boundaries and keep pushing until those boundaries were broken because I would know no such restrictions because my mind is opened and closed at the very same time. It would be a world fit fot strictly kings and commoners and I asure my friend I would not be a commoner. It boggles my mind if such a world exist and it makes my mouth water. Yep this is what a single anime has done to me and nothing better could have happened to me. My mind is always in overdrive and you would think it would suck but it doesnt. Its a challenge that I accepted and Im improving myself on it. Agreed I sound more arrogant now and Im sure Ill come across as a huge Elitest (which I am)and Im sure cocky, weird, and mad scientist have crossed your minds already. And that is my point. I am thought provoking and this what I want. I will admit it is very immature but it is also very pleasent that a simple cartoon when thought about heavily can do this to a person. I can now read people for the horrible human beings they are. I can tell a lie from anyone and lie back and they would never know. I can be evil and have no remorse to whatever I do because I have opened my mind to almost anything and everything and this is what people call crazy, perhaps I am crazy, but if you read my statements carefully, isnt there truth in my madness??