Sell my old clothes, i'm off to heaven...
It has been so ugly up here lately. the rain is too much...definitely brings everyones moods down. i talked to my mother yesterday and i feel like she is so isolated and has no one to talk to about anything. i almost feel guilty being here, though she wants me to not have to suffer like she does 10 hours a day working a job she completely detests. the sacrifice is so huge but i feel like i am thankful for it everyday. it just kills me to know she seems so unhappy. i had a cool dream while powernapping today. it was a guy and a girl just walking around this rustic meadow and there was a vision of them in a rowboat together just floating downstream with leaves falling. it made me happy...i give iron & wine's "the creek drank the cradle" credit for that. it puts me in a tame mood. anywho, we watched "the graduate" today in avf and i forgot how much i loved that movie. it is so good, and i indeed had something interesting to say today. i credit that to red bull. this was just said to me online...HaMzAdArLuVr: at least you dont have dreams of axing a vagina. i love my friends. next week is going to be so fucking stressful for me. the work load just keeps getting larger. i feel oddly good right now, though i miss fall in maryland. thinking about it depresses me as to people from long island don't stop and notice things such as dying foliage. lame.