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Whew. Okay. I started my new job today. I'm so lost haha. I forgot how much it sucked to have to start over and learn new things. I probably wont see my boyfriend til Friday and that kinda makes me sad... Even though I usually don't see him Mon-Thurs, I usually at least hope I will. But I knew I wouldn't see him last night or tonight, tomorrow he has school til 10pm, Thursday I have a dept. meeting at 9pm, and then Friday hopefully I will see him but I have to work 13 hours so I don't know how ready I am going to be to go out... Because I have to get up and work again Saturday morning at 7. So that's really going to suck. But I'm hoping that I'm gonna roll in the big dough at the very least. I figure in total on Friday, I should get about 40 in cash... I'm hoping... And roughly 15-20 on Saturday. So that would definitely make me happy. But yeah.... Talking to Brian tomorrow and quitting is going to be rough. There are so many people I'm going to miss. So many customers, and quite a few co-workers. But there are also many people I wont miss at all. But I'll miss a lot of things... Like how when I went to work Monday, the sign outside said "Happy Birthday Amanda!" and how it's like a big family there. And how laid back it is. And how comfortable I am being myself. And how much everyone likes me there. And watching people drive by. Like Ryan, watching all his trucks driving by over summer haha. Or how he'd stop in now and then after work to eat and see me since the shop was so close. He's never going visit me now :( so that makes me very sad. But... at least if anything bad ever happens between Ryan and I, I wont have those things to make me feel down either... But I'm just nervous I guess. I just want to quickly get to that comfortable point. The first month just always sucks the most. Agh.