Kierra when I think about the most important people in my life and I think about the people I would call if I knew i had minutes to live... you are still one of those people.
After meeting you in sixth grade you became one of the biggest and greatest parts of my life and no matter how much time, space, or difference sets us apart I love you so much and I would NEVER hesitate to be there for you.
I can't say that I'm not disappointed in some choices that a lot of people i love have made, but i am also disappointed in some of the choices i have made myself. But i think the hardest thing for me, and the thing that i am having trouble getting over is how much you have changed from the person i first met. i remember this young, beautiful, dedicated girl who was so studios and so passionate and looked at me with so much sincerity anytime i was talking to you or around you. the girl that use to lay in that dirt theater room and go to the mall for random auditions that we chickened out of, the girl that would leave me five minute long voice mails that gave me something to look foward to when i got off work, the girl that threw up on some gangsta guys sweater at a party because she drank too much.... and ever through that i still saw the same fire in your eyes and the same passions and the same sincerity and the same dedication to school. But when i came home for Kristen's funeral, it was like i was looking at someone different, someone who couldnt even look my in the face anymore, someone who was so lost that they though they were found. I know the things you are doing are not who you are because i know who you are. I know you have had a a really really difficult time lately and i havnt been around to help you or to really see what you've been going through but i and you know that deep down you are still there... wanting to be that honor student and wanting to be passionate again.
I dont want you to hurt again or be sad. and you have to realize that, as harmless as they seem now, the drugs you are messing with can really ruin you. You have so much more to look forward to and you have so much life to live, but you are choosing to live them in an absent state of mind. There is so much more to life and i know you know that.
I just want to see you succeed, and i know you will. I just want you to be happy and secure and comfortable. I really hope you are / will be.
I love you so much, and i will always love you so much. And i really hope to see you again and actually see YOU.
Please, if i can EVER do ANYTHING for you... please let me know.
After meeting you in sixth grade you became one of the biggest and greatest parts of my life and no matter how much time, space, or difference sets us apart I love you so much and I would NEVER hesitate to be there for you.
I can't say that I'm not disappointed in some choices that a lot of people i love have made, but i am also disappointed in some of the choices i have made myself. But i think the hardest thing for me, and the thing that i am having trouble getting over is how much you have changed from the person i first met. i remember this young, beautiful, dedicated girl who was so studios and so passionate and looked at me with so much sincerity anytime i was talking to you or around you. the girl that use to lay in that dirt theater room and go to the mall for random auditions that we chickened out of, the girl that would leave me five minute long voice mails that gave me something to look foward to when i got off work, the girl that threw up on some gangsta guys sweater at a party because she drank too much.... and ever through that i still saw the same fire in your eyes and the same passions and the same sincerity and the same dedication to school. But when i came home for Kristen's funeral, it was like i was looking at someone different, someone who couldnt even look my in the face anymore, someone who was so lost that they though they were found. I know the things you are doing are not who you are because i know who you are. I know you have had a a really really difficult time lately and i havnt been around to help you or to really see what you've been going through but i and you know that deep down you are still there... wanting to be that honor student and wanting to be passionate again.
I dont want you to hurt again or be sad. and you have to realize that, as harmless as they seem now, the drugs you are messing with can really ruin you. You have so much more to look forward to and you have so much life to live, but you are choosing to live them in an absent state of mind. There is so much more to life and i know you know that.
I just want to see you succeed, and i know you will. I just want you to be happy and secure and comfortable. I really hope you are / will be.
I love you so much, and i will always love you so much. And i really hope to see you again and actually see YOU.
Please, if i can EVER do ANYTHING for you... please let me know.
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