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it's 4:38 in the morning
and i have school in, like, 3 hours
i hate not being able to sleep
i realized today that i'm terribly behind on everything
my financial aid shit is due TOMORROW
i have to finish my scholarship application by TODAY
and i have no idea how i'm going to get it done
i came to the realization today that my life is way too cluttered and disorganized and i think that's whats fucking with me the most. i really need to get my shit together. i'm going to get my shit together.
i guess i say that a lot
there's just so much shit going on right now. i have so much on my mind. there are things i can't talk to really anyone about and they're really beginning to weigh on me.
on a much brighter note: i have over 300 dollars in my bank account right now. i have never been able to say that and it feels really good. i plan on blowing a big chunk of that today. i think i need to.
goddamnit i want to sleep.
my mother's birthday is coming up. and with it the anniversary of my "incident". i've decided that i'm going to do something amazing for her. just because last year i did probably the worst thing i could have done to celebrate another year in the life of the woman who gave birth to me.
i'm pretty sure i'm dying.
i miss the way things were over the summer. it makes me really sad to know that i haven't seen or talked to sophia in a really long time. no one's to blame for us drifting apart. she got a girlfriend, i started working a lot more, these things happen. we're hanging out on sunday. i'm actually kind of scared. i guess that's weird. i just hate those awkward moments when you come face to face with someone who used to be a big part of your life but knows so very little about anything that's been going on with you. we'll see how this works itself out.
i think i'm going to try to take ahold of this last hour of sleep i might get.
oh mr. sandman
bring me a dream
and i have school in, like, 3 hours
i hate not being able to sleep
i realized today that i'm terribly behind on everything
my financial aid shit is due TOMORROW
i have to finish my scholarship application by TODAY
and i have no idea how i'm going to get it done
i came to the realization today that my life is way too cluttered and disorganized and i think that's whats fucking with me the most. i really need to get my shit together. i'm going to get my shit together.
i guess i say that a lot
there's just so much shit going on right now. i have so much on my mind. there are things i can't talk to really anyone about and they're really beginning to weigh on me.
on a much brighter note: i have over 300 dollars in my bank account right now. i have never been able to say that and it feels really good. i plan on blowing a big chunk of that today. i think i need to.
goddamnit i want to sleep.
my mother's birthday is coming up. and with it the anniversary of my "incident". i've decided that i'm going to do something amazing for her. just because last year i did probably the worst thing i could have done to celebrate another year in the life of the woman who gave birth to me.
i'm pretty sure i'm dying.
i miss the way things were over the summer. it makes me really sad to know that i haven't seen or talked to sophia in a really long time. no one's to blame for us drifting apart. she got a girlfriend, i started working a lot more, these things happen. we're hanging out on sunday. i'm actually kind of scared. i guess that's weird. i just hate those awkward moments when you come face to face with someone who used to be a big part of your life but knows so very little about anything that's been going on with you. we'll see how this works itself out.
i think i'm going to try to take ahold of this last hour of sleep i might get.
oh mr. sandman
bring me a dream