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i like that i can feel like shit and not feel the urge to call anyone anymore. i like that i can be alone and make myself feel better all on my own. i like that whiteside thinks i'm smart. i like that i stayed home all day and didn't fight with my family not once. i like that even though there are a lot of things i hate right now, i'm writing about things i like. i like that i'm letting go instead of causing conflict. i like that i'm babysitting on sunday. i like that right now, academically, i feel good about the way things are going. i like that i can smoke downstairs in my living room. i like that i haven't talked to any of my friends all day. i like that without brushing my teeth or showering all day, i looked in the mirror and felt pretty. i like that i got to sleep in until 2:30 today while everyone else had to be at school. i like that my parents didn't care that i slept in until 2:30 today instead of going to school. i like being celebate and not having to worry about boys. i like that i'm not doing anything this weekend because i have an sat to take, work to be at, and babysitting to do. i like that i'm busy a lot. i like apples. i like that i no longer care that you may or may not be reading this. i like that i no longer care what people think. i like that i no longer care at all. i like being a virgin again. i like being able to declare my re-virginizing. i like sleep.
i'm going to sleep.
i'm going to sleep.