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[thewatchyouwear]

i'm back.
i wish i wasn't.
i forgot how amazing it is to get away from everything.
i was right, it was good for me.
i barely talked to anyone and i'm not sorry for getting out of touch. i needed it. i needed to get away from every negative thought that follows me around and creeps up when i'm trying to sleep.
i didn't worry about her
and he didn't cross my mind not once
instead i fished
and swam
and ate
i got really fat
and completely let myself go in a way that only that lake can let me
and it felt great.
i barely smoked and... i didn't die like i thought i would
i feel reconnected to a part of myself that i lost for awhile
a part that was based on my friends or my past
i was the good girl for week.
for a week i was no longer the girl that od'd
or the slut
or the smoker
or the druggie
i was still the ten year old they remember me as.
it's amazing to be around people that know nothing about you but know you better than almost anyone else.
i'll miss those stars
until next year...