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[thewatchyouwear]

it seems that, after so many experiences where one has been fucked over, one might realize there is something that needs to be fixed. why has one not figured this out after 3 years?

don't fall down now
you will never get up

yes i guess i fucked up again

speaking of which. i'm starting to get really tired of people telling me what a complete fuck up i am. i have come to this realization on my own many times and do not need it reiterated to me so frequently.
i'm giving up boys for lent. is that how you spell it? i dunno... i'm not even catholic. it just seems like it would help a lot.

it feels so good inside your shadow
it's a place i need to be
yeah you know i need to climb you like a tree

i hate the way i am around you
i am so nervous and weird
sometimes i feel like i'm breathing under water

i wish you never looked at me.
i wish i could just take this for what it was.
you had to fuck it up by acting the way you did
for the first time, it wasn't me.
i guess that's comforting.
i need to find that switch again
that switch in my brain that turns all the hot things cold
and all the crazy things sane

you make me feel like a whore.

i don't wanna end up like them
well, maybe i do just a little

what am i doing tonight?

you do it to yourself
you do
and that's why it really hurts

i'm tired.
i'm too nice.
am i becoming a doormat?
i wish i enjoyed being a bitch. i would make life so much easier.

you do it to yourself
yes, you
you and no one else.