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[thewakeupbomb]

i can't be this fucking sad all of the time. it's ridiculous. it's fucking stupid that i can't go watch a movie on a sunday afternoon without feeling so emo. godfuckingdammit. i can't do anything. i can't enjoy anything. it was a good movie, it really was. but i felt awful and nauseated and i snuck into the movie next door afterwards. it was good too. but i was still sad. i don't think i like watching movies anymore.
i wanna go piss on a hummer. i want to smash in all of the windows in my house because i feel like i'm suffocating. i want to shave my head. i want to rip my heart out and bury it so far away that i can never ever feel like this again.

i want to move to oregon. or washington. i want majestic mountains, goddamnit.




that's all i want really. just this view and a job at a nice birth center. and some peace and fucking quiet would be nice.