What is a cure???
Ive been getting really bad headaches...i litrally go blind...had all the tests with needles and reaction times and eye tests but as far as anyone can tell im fine...(fine...what a mundane word to use in discriptive terms)...apart from the fact that since my last headache i havent been able to see out of my right eye but this seems not to have altered anyones opioion...im am still just fine..."it will return...eventually" (!!!???EVENTUALLY???!!!) yeah that was three days ago...the waiting game continues...
in some fucked up way its pretty cool...since my first attack i have been dreaming in black and white...a very weird concept but i expect nothing less...my head still hums...(constantly..like when a TV has gone static)...AARRGGHH...I feel like scratching out my eyes with a spoon or ripping out my hair to get rid of this feeling...
The only option is to be put on pills for the rest of my life...oh the joy of modern medicine!!! Take 7 pills for the rest of your life and you'll be cured!
Thats what people call a cure...something that makes the pain go away...but most of the time it is mistaken for something that just makes the smptoms go away...
Well if and when these pills do finally kick in...(day 5 and still no effect) then have i found a cure or just something that im dependant on because it masks that something is wrong...
So ive found a bodily cure...what about a mental one...???
I sometimes wonder if my headaches are my phychi trying to make me re-live the torment and pain i have kept so well hidden so i will never forget that trust is a luxury and love only a word used in story books to brainwash little kids in to thinking life isnt so bad...what a way to shatter such a percious thing...
- Families are always there...
- Siblings are your best friends...
- True love really igsits...
- Trust...trust is what the sleepover club share with there hot chocolate at a midnight snack.
NEWS FLASH:
- Families are just people who think they know you best but are the ones who know you the least...because what they think you should be and what you are, is never on the same plane.
- Siblings abuse you more than any other human being will...
- True love is a farse, it left the books written by those old twisted men, became something more powerfull because of its absence and soon was just another way to shatter the hopes of the young
- As for trust...trust is a wish disguised as friendship or love which is the most devsetating disguise to have...trust is always missused and then turned into sordid dirty secreats. now trust is something i only practise with my self!!!!
in some fucked up way its pretty cool...since my first attack i have been dreaming in black and white...a very weird concept but i expect nothing less...my head still hums...(constantly..like when a TV has gone static)...AARRGGHH...I feel like scratching out my eyes with a spoon or ripping out my hair to get rid of this feeling...
The only option is to be put on pills for the rest of my life...oh the joy of modern medicine!!! Take 7 pills for the rest of your life and you'll be cured!
Thats what people call a cure...something that makes the pain go away...but most of the time it is mistaken for something that just makes the smptoms go away...
Well if and when these pills do finally kick in...(day 5 and still no effect) then have i found a cure or just something that im dependant on because it masks that something is wrong...
So ive found a bodily cure...what about a mental one...???
I sometimes wonder if my headaches are my phychi trying to make me re-live the torment and pain i have kept so well hidden so i will never forget that trust is a luxury and love only a word used in story books to brainwash little kids in to thinking life isnt so bad...what a way to shatter such a percious thing...
- Families are always there...
- Siblings are your best friends...
- True love really igsits...
- Trust...trust is what the sleepover club share with there hot chocolate at a midnight snack.
NEWS FLASH:
- Families are just people who think they know you best but are the ones who know you the least...because what they think you should be and what you are, is never on the same plane.
- Siblings abuse you more than any other human being will...
- True love is a farse, it left the books written by those old twisted men, became something more powerfull because of its absence and soon was just another way to shatter the hopes of the young
- As for trust...trust is a wish disguised as friendship or love which is the most devsetating disguise to have...trust is always missused and then turned into sordid dirty secreats. now trust is something i only practise with my self!!!!