Damnit...
Before I get on with this stupid depression thing that just doesn't seem to ever go away, I just wanna say that Cancun was a blast. I'm just not gonna mix all that up in a depressing entry, and I don't particularly have the energy to type all that out right now. Hopefully I will later.
Anyway...you all seem to be up to date on me and the whole girl situation, so I would say it's safe to assume you all know how I feel. In case you didn't know, I took this girl I met at my church to prom. Since then (and even a bit before) I've had some strong feelings for her, but I couldn't do anything about it other than what I had (told her), and it just couldn't happen because she was still sort of coming out of a bad relationship. I haven't really talked to her since then too much except for a couple of phone conversations and then I saw her today for the first time since prom at church. The thing was, she was sitting next to a guy. At first I thought that maybe she had met someone but then I reminded myself that she told me she wasn't really looking for a relationship right now, so I just brushed it off and kind of forgot about it.
After church, a bunch of us decided to go to Chili's just to hang out. In the middle of it all, we're just having a good time and she and her friend were joking around and she goes "Hey...you're gonna pay for me right?" He says to her, "Oh...I see how it works. You don't even introduce me as the boyfriend and you still expect me to pay?" Now, I realize that this is more than likely my fault for not keeping in touch, but that still doesn't change the fact that it hurt. I mean...I poured my heart out to this girl telling her how much I wanted to be with her, and she says she's hurting way to much from her last relationship and she needs time, but a month later she's dating this guy.
Whatever... I dunno. This is more than likely me just over reacting or being rediculous again. Or maybe it's the fact that it's been so long for me. Or maybe it's....whatever. Screw it.
I feel like I've tried everything. I've gone on living my life doing what I do without actually trying to find a girlfriend. I've tried to be more agressive when it comes to approaching girls. You could probably make suggestions for awhile and I could probably tell you I've tried just about all of them. All I know is, like I said before...anytime I meet a girl, somehow it always ends up falling to pieces in the end.
I'm sure you're over me and my petty problems by now so I'll just end it here. Thanks for listening if you actually made it this far before reading something else.
Musically,
Tim
Anyway...you all seem to be up to date on me and the whole girl situation, so I would say it's safe to assume you all know how I feel. In case you didn't know, I took this girl I met at my church to prom. Since then (and even a bit before) I've had some strong feelings for her, but I couldn't do anything about it other than what I had (told her), and it just couldn't happen because she was still sort of coming out of a bad relationship. I haven't really talked to her since then too much except for a couple of phone conversations and then I saw her today for the first time since prom at church. The thing was, she was sitting next to a guy. At first I thought that maybe she had met someone but then I reminded myself that she told me she wasn't really looking for a relationship right now, so I just brushed it off and kind of forgot about it.
After church, a bunch of us decided to go to Chili's just to hang out. In the middle of it all, we're just having a good time and she and her friend were joking around and she goes "Hey...you're gonna pay for me right?" He says to her, "Oh...I see how it works. You don't even introduce me as the boyfriend and you still expect me to pay?" Now, I realize that this is more than likely my fault for not keeping in touch, but that still doesn't change the fact that it hurt. I mean...I poured my heart out to this girl telling her how much I wanted to be with her, and she says she's hurting way to much from her last relationship and she needs time, but a month later she's dating this guy.
Whatever... I dunno. This is more than likely me just over reacting or being rediculous again. Or maybe it's the fact that it's been so long for me. Or maybe it's....whatever. Screw it.
I feel like I've tried everything. I've gone on living my life doing what I do without actually trying to find a girlfriend. I've tried to be more agressive when it comes to approaching girls. You could probably make suggestions for awhile and I could probably tell you I've tried just about all of them. All I know is, like I said before...anytime I meet a girl, somehow it always ends up falling to pieces in the end.
I'm sure you're over me and my petty problems by now so I'll just end it here. Thanks for listening if you actually made it this far before reading something else.
Musically,
Tim