Am I insane or having the worlds strangest mid-life crisis?
Some times I wish I had never opened Pandora's box by stopping to consider whether or not I could be attracted to women, then I could just go on being blissfully ignorant. I keep thinking I've been married for a really long time now and my hubby's a great guy! I wouldn't have married him otherwise so what the hell is wrong with me?? Is this just about missing my mom and the kind of affection she gave me and if so why do I like about 20 actresses and only about 8 actors. I wouldn't watch a movie just because an actor I likes in it, but for an actress I would. Is that weird? I am to old for this shit!!! This is the kind of thing teenagers and people in their early teens should be dealing with not people who's lives are almost half over and what the hell do I do about it???
Here are a few of the things that are driving me craziest. I have always wished guys would keep their undies and preferably even their pants on, but naked women have never bothered me. My dad had playboy calenders and stuff all over the place so I just assumed I was more used to it and maybe I am I don't know? I hate chest hair and I'm more drawn to guys who can be described as pretty ( the more they look like a girl the more I like them). I was always a tom boy, but I have a feminine face and I like looking like a girl I also like women who look like girls. Am I supposed to become a girl who looks more like a boy?? I can't stand my hair short, I will cry!!!! I have been told I am more like a boy by my boyfriend when I was 9. Did I hear to many fairy tales and get poisoned by what society sees as right or am I just plain crazy?
I did finally get the third hole in my right ear pierced yesterday though so now I have an equal amount of earrings on each side. makes me feel like I'm at least no longer lying by insinuating that I'm straight. I don't have any clue how I would say to people without just saying it that I am bi, is there some book like how to dress lesbian or bi-sexual for dummies?
Here are a few of the things that are driving me craziest. I have always wished guys would keep their undies and preferably even their pants on, but naked women have never bothered me. My dad had playboy calenders and stuff all over the place so I just assumed I was more used to it and maybe I am I don't know? I hate chest hair and I'm more drawn to guys who can be described as pretty ( the more they look like a girl the more I like them). I was always a tom boy, but I have a feminine face and I like looking like a girl I also like women who look like girls. Am I supposed to become a girl who looks more like a boy?? I can't stand my hair short, I will cry!!!! I have been told I am more like a boy by my boyfriend when I was 9. Did I hear to many fairy tales and get poisoned by what society sees as right or am I just plain crazy?
I did finally get the third hole in my right ear pierced yesterday though so now I have an equal amount of earrings on each side. makes me feel like I'm at least no longer lying by insinuating that I'm straight. I don't have any clue how I would say to people without just saying it that I am bi, is there some book like how to dress lesbian or bi-sexual for dummies?