Hurt
I find myself tonight with an unbelieve sense of hurt and depression.
Because of the acts of people I thought were friends. I have not maid a
post since my birthday so I guess I should update and say whats been
happening. I had my birthday party, which was relatively nice, nice ot
see some people I dont usually hang out with, like Mindie, Brianna and
Halley. Thats all who came besides my usual friends. Bradford came, for
like 30 minutes, I shared with him my special vodka that I bought for
my bday, this Danish import stuff, and it got down to half a bottle (of
which I never got a single drop) and I put it away and told himand Pete
that I wanted to save the rest for another day when I was going to
drink. I leave to get Fry, cause he doesnt drive. I get back Bradford is
gone, apparently because I didnt sell him drugs or something.
My vodka is gone, I call him and he denies taking it. I know it was him, he was
the only one it could be. I find out today that he admited to stealing
it, because get this, he figured he would upset me so much that I would
stop calling him. Wow. So you steal someones special vodka on their
21st birthday, after they have been so kind as to share most of it with
you, after you continue to be rude and disrepectful to me, and not make
an effort after 8 months to pay me back. The funny thing too is that I
rarely talk to him, like a couple times a month, and its usually to be
nice and invite him to something, that usually involves me offering him
free drinks and fun, I dont even ask for my money he owes me, like 90%
of the times ive talked to him. Apparently that was too much for him.
When I hear from Petey and his Girlfriend that he is sad we dont hang
out, and wants to hang out more. I guess that was just lies. Its one
thing to not pay someone back, its another to do such a thing to them
on my birthday. I got back and saw that someone i considered my
bestfriend had not only not really been kind on my birthday but had
left and stole from me, and that ruined my mood, which didnt get better
till hours later, long after everone had already left. So you ruined my
birthday, happy? All this, and all ive done is been your friend and
treated you with kindness and respect continously despite no effort on
your part to reciprocate. I dont talk shit about you, Never have. I
still treat you like my bestfriend and you have to add more too it, and
personally hurt me like that on my birthday. That makes twice I got
fucked on my birthday. I also got fucked my Mr Peasner who owes me 80
bucks and ws supposed to give it back to me later in the day on my
Bday, but never did, and after a week I finally talk to his sister, and
he doesnt have any money. Great. Steal from me on my Birthday too.
So im leaving for Vegas Sunday morning and I have no money, not for food
not for anything when I get there. I need to recoop 1grand to get the
money back my mom gave me to pay some credit card debt which I havent
done yet. I need 800 to fix my other bank account. Ive been unemployed
for a very long time, and so ill all the time Im not even sure I could
work right now. Everyone owes me money, if they didnt I would be fine
financially. But I spend all my money on others and put my self in this
situation because of my gratitude. I would be quite financially stable
if I didnt spend it and loan it to others.
Apprently another friend of mine whoes name starts with B is four letters and ends in LL doesnt like to hang out with me because he thinks im opped out all the time, which im not, he has started to assume like everyone and formulate opinions about people without fact. Apparently no one wants to hang out with me, the treatment I get for all I do.
Bleh im dont know where im going with this. Im hurt, im sad, im depressed at how im treated, by friends. Id say if you owe me money to pay me, but that has never worked, no one feels a sense to pay me back. So I will sit here with a continuing sense of hurt and betrayal from friends, withdrawn to hang out with my self.
Happy 21 Jeff
who wants to steal from me next....
Apprently another friend of mine whoes name starts with B is four letters and ends in LL doesnt like to hang out with me because he thinks im opped out all the time, which im not, he has started to assume like everyone and formulate opinions about people without fact. Apparently no one wants to hang out with me, the treatment I get for all I do.
Bleh im dont know where im going with this. Im hurt, im sad, im depressed at how im treated, by friends. Id say if you owe me money to pay me, but that has never worked, no one feels a sense to pay me back. So I will sit here with a continuing sense of hurt and betrayal from friends, withdrawn to hang out with my self.
Happy 21 Jeff
who wants to steal from me next....