Angry rant
I am FUCKIN' PISSED!
Ok, before I start, I have to admit that I have anger management issues and some things I say may be out of line.
And as a warning, it may trigger one thing or another.
So yes, I'm not the calmest person around and I may not deal with most things the best way but that's just who I am. It's usually just bitching and yelling because I've gone through therapy [I was a lot worse], but when bitches piss me off I'll slap 'em!
Granted, in this case, I couldn't, since it was an IM conversation but I got SO mad!
To clear things up: I'm not saying I'm right or this is the way you should act in this kind of situations. Calm is always better, but yeah.
First off, I'm a really hated person. I have haters up the ass, 90% of them never even got to talk to me, they hate me just by hearing stuff from other people. Fine. That doesn't bother me at all because it's easier for me to find quality people like that. Hate me all the fuck you want, send death threats, hate mail, the works. I'll take them in stride and laugh at your stupid ass for being such an ignorant fuck.
But this bitch... THIS BITCH!!
She added me on msn, how the fuck she got my e-mail I don't have a shitting clue. She started off by saying hello and asking me if I have a certain song and if I was willing to send it. I shrugged. I sent it to her. So I was nice, right? Right.
I wasn't so talkative seeing as I was talking to a really good friend in the meantime and playing my guitar so my replies, I admit, were scattered and a bit short. However, I replied and I was actually nice. She asked me questions, I answered. I wasn't all "OMG LET'S BE BESTIES!" from the start because that just isn't me.
I don't fuckin' befriend people from the first talk, it takes me a while to be able to open up and discuss things that are private, but random conversation? Sure, why not. Ask, I'll answer. Fuck, I'll even ask you back if you want to.
So after me sending that song and her asking me 3 PERSONAL questions to which I answered things like. "I'm not comfortable sharing that, sorry" or even giving her a vague answer because I didn't want to block her ass completely, this bitch said "Well they were right about you, you're a fuckin' stuck up elitistic bitch"
EXCUSE ME??
Bitch you know jack fuckin' squat about me or who I am or HOW the fuck I am and you're calling me a stuck up elitistic bitch? Really? You figured that out from me being polite and fuckin' nice to your scrawny ass? If you just believed what those ignorant fucks told you why in the name of Shittastia did you even bothered to add me and talk to me in the first fuckin' place? Just pack your fuckin' toys and go home, I don't give a shit about your opinion on me but if you decide you want to be the smarter one and get to know me, don't fuckin' judge me from 3 words I've told you!
I've decided not to lash out and be FUCKIN' NICE and tell her I'm sorry if I said anything mean to her and she said "no, no, no, you didn't say anything". SAY WHAT?? THEN WHY AM I A FUCKIN' STUCK UP ELITISTIC BITCH??
gnaaaaahhhh *sigh*
Anyway, she kept talking to me. I talked to her back. But then she said one of the DUMBEST things. Telling me my best friend died because of me and that I wasn't even a good friend to her. My brain cracked.
To explain, my best friend died in a car crash in Munchen, Germany [I'm from Romania]. HOW THE FUCK CAN IT BE MY FAULT??
NO ONE has the right to talk to me about Sonya because NO ONE fuckin' knows what we've been through and how much we meant to eachother. And saying shit like that is just wrong!
And bitch, I know you'll read this, you have no shitting right to even mention her name you stupid STUPID fucktard! You might've known her, so fuckin' what? Stupid ignorant fuck, you know SHIT about her OR me. You have no fuckin' clue about how our fuckin' friendship went, you have NO idea how these four fuckin piss of years have been without her and you can go fuck yourself in the ass with a red hot iron rod if you think you can even afford to judge our relationship.
Telling me I wasn't a good friend to her? Fuck you! FUCK YOU! You weren't the one that held her hand until the paramedics came when she OD'd on heroin you stupid cunt! You weren't the one she ran to when her foster mom beat her with a leather belt and you weren't the one she called when her wrists were bleeding.
You didn't have to carry her drunk ass home when strangers called me that she passed out on the floor of a club and I was her contact number. YOU WEREN'T HER CONTACT NUMBER! And you're saying I was a bad friend why? Because someone told you I kept her locked in her house for 4 days when her foster mom was in another country? STUPID CUNT! I stayed with her that whole time while she went through heroin withdrawal so don't fuckin' judge me without getting an insight of the whole situation!
After she said that moronic thing, I didn't even bother to explain the thing to her. I just fuckin' lashed out and called her names and bullied her ass all the way to fuckin' hell and back.
And then she goes "I'm older and smarter than you so you should respect me" and put a fuckin' crying face and kept complaining how I'm so mean for pointing out all her defects [which I didn't even know she has any, I don't even know her ass-cunt face].
BITCH You can be the fuckin' Dalai Lama, if you're gonna say stupid things I'll bitch at you!
Morale of the story: Don't mess with Anger Management bipolar people unless you're ready to take in everything said person has to say!