Missed
Im haveing a really shitty day...
So i was reading over some of Chads old journal entrys ( for though's of you who dont know, im seeing Chad again ) and i realizied how much of a dick i was, and am, to him. I am a self centered, selfish, careless, and an asshole of a person. To everyone, and expecually to the people i love (Example; Chad.) I want to change, but thats how i... I guess i was raised. My mom always said that im better than everyone else. But im not, im so fucking far away from that. Everyone is the same in the way that were all human. And i and to apperciate everyone for that, and im trying so hard...
So reading Chads journal, was a needed kick in the face. It hurt me to see how bad i hurt him. I never ment to do him any harm.
I love you Chad. You are one of the only people who see me for what i am. Everyone else see's me as another flaming fagg walking down the hallway; but i fell like you see me as who and what i am. I still get butterflys when i think of that night at mig's house. Everytime i see you i get goosebumps, and i get so nervious.
I want to let you know, that if you ever what to know anything, about what happened or whats going on, please just ask me. DOnt be afraid to let me know how you fell; Weather you want to tell me to go fucking die, or what ever. Im here for ya kidd :-]
So here i am, thinking that i really want to call him, but i dont know if he wants me too... Or... Ahh... > Dies <
Sry to everyone for who I am,
-Garrett
So i was reading over some of Chads old journal entrys ( for though's of you who dont know, im seeing Chad again ) and i realizied how much of a dick i was, and am, to him. I am a self centered, selfish, careless, and an asshole of a person. To everyone, and expecually to the people i love (Example; Chad.) I want to change, but thats how i... I guess i was raised. My mom always said that im better than everyone else. But im not, im so fucking far away from that. Everyone is the same in the way that were all human. And i and to apperciate everyone for that, and im trying so hard...
So reading Chads journal, was a needed kick in the face. It hurt me to see how bad i hurt him. I never ment to do him any harm.
I love you Chad. You are one of the only people who see me for what i am. Everyone else see's me as another flaming fagg walking down the hallway; but i fell like you see me as who and what i am. I still get butterflys when i think of that night at mig's house. Everytime i see you i get goosebumps, and i get so nervious.
I want to let you know, that if you ever what to know anything, about what happened or whats going on, please just ask me. DOnt be afraid to let me know how you fell; Weather you want to tell me to go fucking die, or what ever. Im here for ya kidd :-]
So here i am, thinking that i really want to call him, but i dont know if he wants me too... Or... Ahh... > Dies <
Sry to everyone for who I am,
-Garrett