How things change and yet how they stay very much the same
Well my dating life is as always rather interesting. There are 4 men that I am interested in at the moment. It looks like I am going back to my male harem phase, this is also combined with me being in one of my more dominate phases too! hmmm
One of them is a friend of my housemate and we go out dancing on a semi decent basis. He also wants to be introduced to bdsm. This of course puts a huge huge smile on my face. He also has one of the most kick ass tatts that I have seen in a while.. *drool* I will refer to him as Origen.
Then there is the redhead. He is someone that I am taking Pagan classes with and he is also involved in the nonprofit organization that I am helping start. I am not sure how much I am going to play with him though. he is finishing up college and is an RA so there won't be much time to get together. hmm but he does now how to pull hair :D
The next guy is on active duty and he won't be around much. I think he is just to help curb my hunger until the others get back into town. he leaves to go to Iraq in a week or so. I will probably write to him on occasion, but he knows that I am not interested in him for the long term.
And then.. and then... There is a love who was a major part of my life 10 years ago. The man I use to be engaged to. I went to go visit with him the day after christmas and had a lovely time hanging out. We went for a walk and the next thing I know I am getting kissed, as in. toe curling, mind tingling, lets get into bed now sort of kiss. YUM! Or at least that is how my mind and body interpeted this. This of course has made me want more, however I might not get to do more then kiss him. It has however made me realize that I have never stopped having feelings for this person. This of course scares the crap out of me, but in a good way. He is trying to figure things out with a gal he has been seeing long distance for the past 3 years.. so I am waiting to see how that goes. Plus he needs to finish school and i really should give him space for that since I was a horrible influence the first time around. *evil grin*
so all I can do is wait and see and play with the toys that I have. hehe. PURRRR. And even if we cant go back, I am happy that I have him for a friend. This is a gift that I seem to have aquired, the ability to keep a good portion of my ex's as friends. maybe it is because we have started out as friends first. The ones where it was just sexual right off the bat, generally haven't stayed around very long. Mostly they were just good in bed and that was it.
oh well. I need to run. I have a New Years party to get ready for.
Love you guys.
and especially those who are up in Washington.
One of them is a friend of my housemate and we go out dancing on a semi decent basis. He also wants to be introduced to bdsm. This of course puts a huge huge smile on my face. He also has one of the most kick ass tatts that I have seen in a while.. *drool* I will refer to him as Origen.
Then there is the redhead. He is someone that I am taking Pagan classes with and he is also involved in the nonprofit organization that I am helping start. I am not sure how much I am going to play with him though. he is finishing up college and is an RA so there won't be much time to get together. hmm but he does now how to pull hair :D
The next guy is on active duty and he won't be around much. I think he is just to help curb my hunger until the others get back into town. he leaves to go to Iraq in a week or so. I will probably write to him on occasion, but he knows that I am not interested in him for the long term.
And then.. and then... There is a love who was a major part of my life 10 years ago. The man I use to be engaged to. I went to go visit with him the day after christmas and had a lovely time hanging out. We went for a walk and the next thing I know I am getting kissed, as in. toe curling, mind tingling, lets get into bed now sort of kiss. YUM! Or at least that is how my mind and body interpeted this. This of course has made me want more, however I might not get to do more then kiss him. It has however made me realize that I have never stopped having feelings for this person. This of course scares the crap out of me, but in a good way. He is trying to figure things out with a gal he has been seeing long distance for the past 3 years.. so I am waiting to see how that goes. Plus he needs to finish school and i really should give him space for that since I was a horrible influence the first time around. *evil grin*
so all I can do is wait and see and play with the toys that I have. hehe. PURRRR. And even if we cant go back, I am happy that I have him for a friend. This is a gift that I seem to have aquired, the ability to keep a good portion of my ex's as friends. maybe it is because we have started out as friends first. The ones where it was just sexual right off the bat, generally haven't stayed around very long. Mostly they were just good in bed and that was it.
oh well. I need to run. I have a New Years party to get ready for.
Love you guys.
and especially those who are up in Washington.