I knew you had one at one point.. I didn't remember what the username was.
I'm thinkin' over this one.
You'd have to understand before I do, that I'm actually open with this. I guess one entry is filtered so you wouldn't read it anyways, but yeah.. and I'm not a nice person about what I found out. I mean, at first I was fine, then I realized I was in denial and I'm not a name calling person to one's face, but when it comes to my notebook, that's how I get my anger/pain out and then I typed it.
I just. I don't know if you'd be prepared enough for it.
And you'd have to understand that yes, I did cuddle with Bill. We would forget the world and it was pretty great.
So you can hate me, you can curse me, whatever you need to do.
Now.. I'd still have to think about the adding you and if I really think you can take it, I just don't want to bring you down or anything anymore than I already have.. so do you still want to be added.
I mean, this is all in assumption that you'll be added and go back and read what I've posted lately. I mean, I started posting on September 25th.
I'm not really as fragile as that. I mean, yeah, I guess I tend to be. But, I get it. Plus, we're over, what you did with Bill when we were together and after or whenever, really, won't hurt me. I'm glad you found someone to forget the world with. =] That's what matters to me.
If I was you and I found out what you heard, I would've been angry and mean too. It's fine. Really, I know that is in the past. not the pastpast but it is in the past.
And if you don't want to add me I won't be offended.
See.. this type of thing.. makes me think that maybe we could have what I always thought we could have with the friendship.. but never felt we had because we weren't open with each other. Maybe we could be those two best friends.. but it always felt like I was second best, if even that. I mean, you always had Melanie and Danielle.. or someone else. And now you have Destany and just.. there were always other people, you know?
Anyways, I'll add you. And I'll add you to the filtered entry..
Just know I'm always here, for anything you have to say.. for anyone you need to rant to.. I'm here. And I'm out of high school and I've never been in the drama scene.. so yeah. And you can trust me, I'm not going to tell anyone and I keep things to myself. I really do. I don't lie and I just.. I'm me.
We'll just have to wait and see.. cause I imagine it happening.. but then I don't see it being possible since it was never possible before.. so it seemed, with how I felt.
you're welcome.
I'm always here. I always have been, even if it didn't feel like it. ♥
I knew you had one at one point.. I didn't remember what the username was.
I'm thinkin' over this one.
You'd have to understand before I do, that I'm actually open with this. I guess one entry is filtered so you wouldn't read it anyways, but yeah.. and I'm not a nice person about what I found out. I mean, at first I was fine, then I realized I was in denial and I'm not a name calling person to one's face, but when it comes to my notebook, that's how I get my anger/pain out and then I typed it.
I just. I don't know if you'd be prepared enough for it.
And you'd have to understand that yes, I did cuddle with Bill. We would forget the world and it was pretty great.
So you can hate me, you can curse me, whatever you need to do.
Now.. I'd still have to think about the adding you and if I really think you can take it, I just don't want to bring you down or anything anymore than I already have.. so do you still want to be added.
I mean, this is all in assumption that you'll be added and go back and read what I've posted lately. I mean, I started posting on September 25th.
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I'm glad you found someone to forget the world with. =] That's what matters to me.
If I was you and I found out what you heard, I would've been angry and mean too.
It's fine. Really, I know that is in the past. not the pastpast but it is in the past.
And if you don't want to add me I won't be offended.
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See.. this type of thing.. makes me think that maybe we could have what I always thought we could have with the friendship.. but never felt we had because we weren't open with each other. Maybe we could be those two best friends.. but it always felt like I was second best, if even that. I mean, you always had Melanie and Danielle.. or someone else. And now you have Destany and just.. there were always other people, you know?
Anyways, I'll add you. And I'll add you to the filtered entry..
Just know I'm always here, for anything you have to say.. for anyone you need to rant to.. I'm here. And I'm out of high school and I've never been in the drama scene.. so yeah. And you can trust me, I'm not going to tell anyone and I keep things to myself. I really do. I don't lie and I just.. I'm me.
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thanks for deciding to add me. =]
And thanks, for being there. It means alot to me. And know the same goes for you. <3
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We'll just have to wait and see.. cause I imagine it happening.. but then I don't see it being possible since it was never possible before.. so it seemed, with how I felt.
you're welcome.
I'm always here. I always have been, even if it didn't feel like it. ♥
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