do you realize that everyone you know someday will die

[theusedarefake]

so the mtv/vh1 interviews both went REALLY well. i think i pretty much have the "mailroom" in the bag (they were all "when can we call you!?!?!") and i TOTALLY got along with the girls in vh1 music and talent. the younger girl michele and i have the same taste in music and leah the head girl just owns and we totally clicked and i was really excited talking to her the whole time and not scared at all. shes calling me back tomorrow so please oh please let it be yes.

i'm gonna be so fucking bummed if it's not.