I Respect You...
...If you've ever tried to stop cutting. Well, here's the story.
On Wednesday, me and Stephen were sitting in the back of the Family Life Center (where we have youth) and he noticed some scars on my arm and asked, "Megan, why do you do that?" "It's a long story. I'll tell you later, okay?" "Okay." He kept joking around a lot during youth, then whenever we were allowed to leave, he came out with me. "Now are you gonna tell me?" I sighed. "It feels like happy, and I can't get enough of it." "WHAT?! It's not supposed to feel like happy! Screwing up your arms is NOT happy!" "I don't screw up my arms anymore." "Then where do you do it? Your legs?" "Yeah." "GOD!" He shook his head. "What's the big deal? You've KNOWN that I've done this for ages!" "But it's so simple to stop! All you have to do is throw away your blades and never look back!" "Okay. So I just throw away the one thing that makes sense in life. The one thing that's helped me through all the hard times. Yeah. It's THAT simple." "But it's so stupid!" "But it's still not that simple!" My eyes started watering and I hugged him. I took a breath and said, "Remember that time I called you and told you I had attempted?" "Yeah..." "What saved me?" "A picture of me." "Exactly. So just be thankful I'm alive right now. That's always good, right?" "Yeah, I guess..." We were like, right in each other's face and I was just about to kiss him when... my cell phone rang. The funny part- my cell vibrates, so I thought that he was doing something, but he took a step back and I realized my mom was calling me to get me to stop talking to him. God, I'm still pissed about that... But.
He's there. He's helping me. I threw away most of my glass. I'm going to do it once more tonight, then I'm done. For good.
Daily hand saying:
Hug a stranger! AAR
Daily funniess:
Sertad: But that is kinda funny
Sertad: Your pants vibrated
On Wednesday, me and Stephen were sitting in the back of the Family Life Center (where we have youth) and he noticed some scars on my arm and asked, "Megan, why do you do that?" "It's a long story. I'll tell you later, okay?" "Okay." He kept joking around a lot during youth, then whenever we were allowed to leave, he came out with me. "Now are you gonna tell me?" I sighed. "It feels like happy, and I can't get enough of it." "WHAT?! It's not supposed to feel like happy! Screwing up your arms is NOT happy!" "I don't screw up my arms anymore." "Then where do you do it? Your legs?" "Yeah." "GOD!" He shook his head. "What's the big deal? You've KNOWN that I've done this for ages!" "But it's so simple to stop! All you have to do is throw away your blades and never look back!" "Okay. So I just throw away the one thing that makes sense in life. The one thing that's helped me through all the hard times. Yeah. It's THAT simple." "But it's so stupid!" "But it's still not that simple!" My eyes started watering and I hugged him. I took a breath and said, "Remember that time I called you and told you I had attempted?" "Yeah..." "What saved me?" "A picture of me." "Exactly. So just be thankful I'm alive right now. That's always good, right?" "Yeah, I guess..." We were like, right in each other's face and I was just about to kiss him when... my cell phone rang. The funny part- my cell vibrates, so I thought that he was doing something, but he took a step back and I realized my mom was calling me to get me to stop talking to him. God, I'm still pissed about that... But.
He's there. He's helping me. I threw away most of my glass. I'm going to do it once more tonight, then I'm done. For good.
Daily hand saying:
Hug a stranger! AAR
Daily funniess:
Sertad: But that is kinda funny
Sertad: Your pants vibrated