i am starting to get sick again

[theupwardbird]

i
am
waiting
for
this
to
stop

i do not handle stress well
i do not have time to handle stress

there is always something to do
there is always something to write
there is always something to read
there is always something to study
there is always something to distract me
there is always something to pull my heart down

i need a long nap
i
think
they
call
this
sleep

i want to feel better
i want to be able to forgive and forget
i want to be able to be able to get past all of this

i am trying my god damn hardest

i
also
want
to
get
healthy
get
to
want
also
i

my
mind
needs
balancing