I hate...
It was nice seeing people yesterday :)
But things quickly turned really sour. I can't think coherently right now so I'll randomly categorize things:
The gig
B's band was alright. B got an applaud during one of his solos. People quickly left the Students Center when they started playing. It was practically cleared out with the exception of a few people. It was a really sad sight... I felt sad that they were playing to an empty Student's Center. Brian worked hard. I'm not sure about the other guys, though.
Here's what I see: the other guys in the band don't really give a shit about the band, so they don't give it their all.
Dandyism Class
I was happy from 5-7 pm.
Dinner-ish
It was fine until the bassist/white guy made a slight-of-hand comment and called me a jackass that was totally uncalled for. Maybe he thought it was funny, I thought he was trying to start shit.
Here's the story: I know I made a comment about his height once a REALLY long time ago and B said that made him feel small. I felt really bad about it and tried to mend my ways. The day before I even offered truce but he was like, "i don't trust you... maybe you have buzzer in your hand or something" when I heard that said quite seriously, "no i don't. why would i?" Why would I want to start beef with this guy? I wouldn't want to make it hard on everybody else. why does he always want to fight me? i was in a war i didn't know i was fighting in. I didn't see it like a war between us, but i really feel like he made it that way. So the whole day/night I was being nice to this guy then all of a sudden he makes a comment and calls me a jackass when i was about to tell a story. now, i've taken the brunt of many slanderous jokes with my friends and i never got offended because i understood the context of their joke. there was no context behind calling me a jackass, so it was an act of malice.
i ended up giving him the silent treatment because i didn't want to argue with him nor did i want to deal with him. it'd be like talking to a brick wall.
i'll get over it, but for now i don't even want to go near that guy.
After Dinner-ish
B and I had a talk. He agreed that what he said was rude and uncalled for but that i deserved it. I've tried to make amends and mend my ways... does that not count for anything? The bassist/white guy likes to take jabs at me, i suppose.
I feel like everybody else has the right to make improper jokes but me. Everybody can call me a jackass and i'm supposed to "take it as a joke"? mind you, he's implied - "jokingly" of course - that i'm stupid. but apparently nobody remembers that. how is it fair that for one or two comments i've made, which I've tried to make amends for, gives him license to insult me forever?
No, i'm not like his girlfriend. I won't take it when he tries to say I'm "dunce" like he did yesterday to her. I never took it from B and I won't take it form him. That's verbal abuse hiding behind the veil of a joke. Most people I know apologize once they realize they've made a bad joke, but yesterday he just kept on going. She's patient. I would snap if I were her only because it's unjustified - and i hate injustice :P
But things quickly turned really sour. I can't think coherently right now so I'll randomly categorize things:
The gig
B's band was alright. B got an applaud during one of his solos. People quickly left the Students Center when they started playing. It was practically cleared out with the exception of a few people. It was a really sad sight... I felt sad that they were playing to an empty Student's Center. Brian worked hard. I'm not sure about the other guys, though.
Here's what I see: the other guys in the band don't really give a shit about the band, so they don't give it their all.
Dandyism Class
I was happy from 5-7 pm.
Dinner-ish
It was fine until the bassist/white guy made a slight-of-hand comment and called me a jackass that was totally uncalled for. Maybe he thought it was funny, I thought he was trying to start shit.
Here's the story: I know I made a comment about his height once a REALLY long time ago and B said that made him feel small. I felt really bad about it and tried to mend my ways. The day before I even offered truce but he was like, "i don't trust you... maybe you have buzzer in your hand or something" when I heard that said quite seriously, "no i don't. why would i?" Why would I want to start beef with this guy? I wouldn't want to make it hard on everybody else. why does he always want to fight me? i was in a war i didn't know i was fighting in. I didn't see it like a war between us, but i really feel like he made it that way. So the whole day/night I was being nice to this guy then all of a sudden he makes a comment and calls me a jackass when i was about to tell a story. now, i've taken the brunt of many slanderous jokes with my friends and i never got offended because i understood the context of their joke. there was no context behind calling me a jackass, so it was an act of malice.
i ended up giving him the silent treatment because i didn't want to argue with him nor did i want to deal with him. it'd be like talking to a brick wall.
i'll get over it, but for now i don't even want to go near that guy.
After Dinner-ish
B and I had a talk. He agreed that what he said was rude and uncalled for but that i deserved it. I've tried to make amends and mend my ways... does that not count for anything? The bassist/white guy likes to take jabs at me, i suppose.
I feel like everybody else has the right to make improper jokes but me. Everybody can call me a jackass and i'm supposed to "take it as a joke"? mind you, he's implied - "jokingly" of course - that i'm stupid. but apparently nobody remembers that. how is it fair that for one or two comments i've made, which I've tried to make amends for, gives him license to insult me forever?
No, i'm not like his girlfriend. I won't take it when he tries to say I'm "dunce" like he did yesterday to her. I never took it from B and I won't take it form him. That's verbal abuse hiding behind the veil of a joke. Most people I know apologize once they realize they've made a bad joke, but yesterday he just kept on going. She's patient. I would snap if I were her only because it's unjustified - and i hate injustice :P