Ride it till the wheels fall off.....
Everyone who knows me knows my views on life and possibly realigion. I don't have that many beliefs in God or the Christian system. Or atleast I didn't, for a year now I have felt dead on the inside. Blood you remember me saying it many times over, but I found somthing that makes me feel alive again. Back up a bit in life though: I lost a woman who was dear to my family an I miss her much, but now she watches over us, and somtimes I believe she speaks to me through other ppl. But after this loss there were two other losses I suffered, that of a girl who I was in love with for the better part of my life, and whom I still love to this day as a close friend. The other a friend of many years, and though the problems came and left the friendship I think is still there. It's all test in life to see how strong and true ppl are to one another. This was a tring time for me, I even lost my car, but then the karma kick back I ended up dating someone who treated me the way I treated L and I felt the pain I caused, I also got the most crappy car I could of that was problem basket (oh yeah failed a black belt test!). Following the test 3hours later this girl and I split up and now she's with my bro. Funny in some ways I guess.
But then somthing unexpected happen, a girl who I don't even really know envited me to her church for Easter, the shock, I went. Not because it was church but when I look at this girl I see somthing wonderful inside of her which I'd like to part of. I really want to get to know her and so I went. The funny thing I've went two more times since and I'm planning on countinuing to go back, not because of her but I feel closer to the ones I've lost in recent years when I'm there. So there is this new girl that I'm very interested in, there's all these new friends I'm meeting. Also meanding friendships from the past, and I've finally got a Civic, my own Martial Arts school and a promotion at work. So I guess it's true what you give you get back. Funny that it took what it did to make me realize that. I just hope it doesn't take that much for everyone to wake up and come alive.
But then somthing unexpected happen, a girl who I don't even really know envited me to her church for Easter, the shock, I went. Not because it was church but when I look at this girl I see somthing wonderful inside of her which I'd like to part of. I really want to get to know her and so I went. The funny thing I've went two more times since and I'm planning on countinuing to go back, not because of her but I feel closer to the ones I've lost in recent years when I'm there. So there is this new girl that I'm very interested in, there's all these new friends I'm meeting. Also meanding friendships from the past, and I've finally got a Civic, my own Martial Arts school and a promotion at work. So I guess it's true what you give you get back. Funny that it took what it did to make me realize that. I just hope it doesn't take that much for everyone to wake up and come alive.