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I apologize for being cryptic, but I got some information from one of my doctors that very well may the answer we’ve been looking for. And I’m fucking terrified.
I really don’t want to put too much information on here right now until I know for certain. I mean. I know I have something, right now. But. I don’t know how bad it is or how it’s going to effect me long term or if it’s going to at all. It might. It might not. It’s up in the air right now.
I am having surgery. I don’t know when yet. As of now, I’m scheduled to see a surgeon, to TALK to him to lay out the course of action, not the actual surgery, on May 7th.
I’m okay. I’m going to be okay. Please don’t think I’m laying around crying because I’m not. Am I scared? Yes. I think that’s a given. But I’ve been scared since I got sick. To have a name put in front of me, a name I know, just kind of magnifies things. And for all I know, this isn’t it. And I’ll go right back to being frustrated because no one knows wtf is wrong with me. But sitting around worrying isn’t going to help me, and I know that. So.
Certain people, if you want to know more, feel free to send me a private message or e-mail. If I don't answer you back, don't be offended. Sooner or later, I'll let everyone know what's going on.
Love ya’ll. Please never take a day of good health for granted.