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[theunhappygrl07]

Hello there!! Well I'm severly depressed.....*sighs* I was totally right w/ my predictions that I made about Chris yesterday......Why did I have to be right??? He says he still wants to be friends and I have to still call him and write him. Yeah I'll write him but I don't think I'll be able to bring myself to call him for a while.....You guys I really need someone to talk to about this!! I feel so alone right now, and it really sux!! The worst thing is is that I still love him and he said that he still loves me......gosh I'm such a wreck I haven't slept in two days and I know there's very more sleepless nights to come. He said that he didn't want to be another guy who hurts me,but that's all he is in the end you know????.....And this is all because he wanted more, he wanted me to be able to be there next to him instead of like 7 states away! I can't give him that!! I hate young love it's such a pile of shit!! I don't really care if I ever date again at this moment, even if I know I will......*sigh* Why is it that people say I can have any guy I want, but I always go for the ones that hurt me the most?????? Well much love and kisses!!!
Yours Truly,
Elisa