still unforgiven
2 weeks and a day. 15 days. Worse than last semester. No. Maybe not worse. Different. Last semester was hell. This time, it will be tougher. But, I am still battling the same thing. Myself. If tomorrow is any indication......9am to 12pm.....activities straight through. Meetings, class, study groups, labs, work. I let it get the better of me last time. Not this time. But, I can already see what I am losing because of it. I barely spoke to anyone last week. Just the roomate occasionally. And its going to get worse. I can handle it. I can handle it. I can handle it. I drove tonight through Auburn. I forsee alot of late night driving over the next 2 weeks. Helps me clear my head, and plan tomorrow accordingly. 24 hours in a day. I have to use them wisely. A's across the board. Thats what I need. That's what I want. Thats what I am going to do.
I've overcome alot over the last few weeks. God gave me the strength, and will continue to give me the strength to resist temptation. I will need strength anyhow.
I've been reading the Screwtape Letters alot, and I reccommend it to everyone. Everything out of that book relates directly to my life. I truly feel God talking to me through it. Read it and you'l understand. Here's a passage that will I will keep with me over the next 2 weeks.
The Enemy allows this disappointment to occur on the threshold of every human endeavor. It occurs when the boy who has been enchanted in the nursery by Stories from the Odyssey buckles down to really learning Greek. ......In every department of life it marks the transition from dreaming aspiration to laborious doing. The Enemy takes this risk because He has a curious fantasy of making all these disgusting human vermin into what He calls His "free" lovers and servants - "sons" is the word He uses......He therefore refuses to carry them, by mere affections and habits, to any of the goals He sets before them: He leaves them to "do it on their own".
Pick this book up and read it, especially if you want to understand ways Satan decieves all Christians.
To sum up : I can handle this. With His strength. And a little motivation. My parents always said I work well under pressure. I guess we'll see.
Sometimes I need to remember just to breathe.
isaiah 41:10
I've overcome alot over the last few weeks. God gave me the strength, and will continue to give me the strength to resist temptation. I will need strength anyhow.
I've been reading the Screwtape Letters alot, and I reccommend it to everyone. Everything out of that book relates directly to my life. I truly feel God talking to me through it. Read it and you'l understand. Here's a passage that will I will keep with me over the next 2 weeks.
The Enemy allows this disappointment to occur on the threshold of every human endeavor. It occurs when the boy who has been enchanted in the nursery by Stories from the Odyssey buckles down to really learning Greek. ......In every department of life it marks the transition from dreaming aspiration to laborious doing. The Enemy takes this risk because He has a curious fantasy of making all these disgusting human vermin into what He calls His "free" lovers and servants - "sons" is the word He uses......He therefore refuses to carry them, by mere affections and habits, to any of the goals He sets before them: He leaves them to "do it on their own".
Pick this book up and read it, especially if you want to understand ways Satan decieves all Christians.
To sum up : I can handle this. With His strength. And a little motivation. My parents always said I work well under pressure. I guess we'll see.
Sometimes I need to remember just to breathe.
isaiah 41:10