debbie downer
"Can't see the Forest for the Trees" I read this little proverb the other day and found it fits where I am in life right now. I analyze more than any sane person ought to at the cost of my own well being.
I tried to stave off the overwhelming sense of depression that happens in the wintertime, but as it seems I was on the precipice of depression and just went over event Horizon. I need to talk to someone about these issues, but I can't think of anyone on the planet that would want to listen to negativity for a while. I have been actively trying to find the core of the problem, but this is a slippery slope, as a I analyze deeper I just keep uncovering aspects of myself that I really don't like. I feel meek, tiny, and uninteresting to all the folks around me. Worst of all I know I am giving off this negative energy, resulting in feelings of withdrawal. Increasingly I have been avoiding social interaction because of the energies I am giving off.
I feel like I exude desperation and I never feel as tough what I am saying is contributing to the conversation. Anytime I express my mind the conversation seems to deaden. Each thing I say has either been said before or completely humorless, so I don't feel genuine. I try to pull things from what I know, but A.) What I know people really aren't interested in B.) I have no sense of humor, C.) I feel like I contradict what everyone says, D.) When words do cross my lips, they are lackluster, and have no meaning. I feel as though I am socially incapable. I really don't have any substantial interpersonal relationships just a bunch of acquaintances.
I want to ask have I been giving off negative vibes recently? When I talk, does it sound as though I am trying to bolster my own image?
I tried to stave off the overwhelming sense of depression that happens in the wintertime, but as it seems I was on the precipice of depression and just went over event Horizon. I need to talk to someone about these issues, but I can't think of anyone on the planet that would want to listen to negativity for a while. I have been actively trying to find the core of the problem, but this is a slippery slope, as a I analyze deeper I just keep uncovering aspects of myself that I really don't like. I feel meek, tiny, and uninteresting to all the folks around me. Worst of all I know I am giving off this negative energy, resulting in feelings of withdrawal. Increasingly I have been avoiding social interaction because of the energies I am giving off.
I feel like I exude desperation and I never feel as tough what I am saying is contributing to the conversation. Anytime I express my mind the conversation seems to deaden. Each thing I say has either been said before or completely humorless, so I don't feel genuine. I try to pull things from what I know, but A.) What I know people really aren't interested in B.) I have no sense of humor, C.) I feel like I contradict what everyone says, D.) When words do cross my lips, they are lackluster, and have no meaning. I feel as though I am socially incapable. I really don't have any substantial interpersonal relationships just a bunch of acquaintances.
I want to ask have I been giving off negative vibes recently? When I talk, does it sound as though I am trying to bolster my own image?