mmmmm hahahahaha
okay...so the deal is...
i'm completely, unconditionally devoted and commited to a gent in portland, who is the same towards me...and we're completely non-commital people. we've broken, and would, break up with people just for two days together. what the hell? who does that kind of thing? is that normal to risk a perfictally wonderful relationship for jsut two days? for the last 3+ years?!?!?!
i mean...reallllllllly now....
i feel bad even contemplating being in a relationship, let alone being in one because i know i'd drop it completely for him.
so why do i even bother being in relationships?
why...that's a good question...
hahaha.
i've felt like a caged animal the last few weeks, to the point of extreme agrivation and...well...killing status. i'm so incredably stoked to be at least making it to Oly on wednesday. at least it's not here. i love seattle, i loooooove my seattle friends and i looooove my job...i just...cant stand being in one place more than 6 weeks. it's a weird affliction i guess...
and by zee vay...i have a real knack for fucking things up with theones i care most about. well maybe not THEM, but the ones i care second to most about...which means boyfriends, and closest of close friends (every one minus my best friend gustifer and geoff who are the ones i care most about...duuuuhhh...oh man chimay is awesome)
i'm completely, unconditionally devoted and commited to a gent in portland, who is the same towards me...and we're completely non-commital people. we've broken, and would, break up with people just for two days together. what the hell? who does that kind of thing? is that normal to risk a perfictally wonderful relationship for jsut two days? for the last 3+ years?!?!?!
i mean...reallllllllly now....
i feel bad even contemplating being in a relationship, let alone being in one because i know i'd drop it completely for him.
so why do i even bother being in relationships?
why...that's a good question...
hahaha.
i've felt like a caged animal the last few weeks, to the point of extreme agrivation and...well...killing status. i'm so incredably stoked to be at least making it to Oly on wednesday. at least it's not here. i love seattle, i loooooove my seattle friends and i looooove my job...i just...cant stand being in one place more than 6 weeks. it's a weird affliction i guess...
and by zee vay...i have a real knack for fucking things up with theones i care most about. well maybe not THEM, but the ones i care second to most about...which means boyfriends, and closest of close friends (every one minus my best friend gustifer and geoff who are the ones i care most about...duuuuhhh...oh man chimay is awesome)