ha...shiney
okay, so sean talks to will
sean talks to me
i finaly talked a bit to will about the whole...him relationship...thing...thing...
i guess he's in the fuck relationships/dealing with ex's shit. and i don't even give a shit right now.
about anything.
cuddle buddys.
fuck buddys.
anything.
i called will tonight.
i LIKE will.
we both know now's not the time...we could and should have fucked many a time, but didn't.
why?
because we actually like eachother and don't want to "fuck shit up"
why is it i seem to always like people i shouldn't...why can't i meet a "nice" boy that's not a drug addict or a whore?
you know...i don't even care. as i said.
i.
don't.
care.
i'm not even sure what happened in my brain...but i don't care.
me and will...seem to be on a simular plan in regards to one another-love eachothers company, don't want to mess things up, don't think we're ready for what eachother could be. he likes the coke as much if not more than i...definatly has the access more than i(by choice) so that gives him an edge i'm glad i don't have. i could see it, if being a 12H thing frequently bad thing...i'mokay with a few lines from time to time...but that...definatly not. so we'll see...but nothing soon. i'm glad we got to talk a bit.
but the reality of it is: i don't think i want anything now...
...?
i don't think i'm in the frame of mind to do that. ask me two weeks ago...yeah? what happened? i think i remembered that i don't care. i want to wake up to swing and rhapsody everyday...i want to eat baby carrots with my lover, i want soy lattes, i want sunflowers brought to my job...i want...stupid things that make me happy. random crazy texts at 3am telling me...things...
you know..it doesnt matter...everyone is and isn't game.
i'm too much of a sugar addict to care anymore what's going on as long as i have arm candy.
sean talks to me
i finaly talked a bit to will about the whole...him relationship...thing...thing...
i guess he's in the fuck relationships/dealing with ex's shit. and i don't even give a shit right now.
about anything.
cuddle buddys.
fuck buddys.
anything.
i called will tonight.
i LIKE will.
we both know now's not the time...we could and should have fucked many a time, but didn't.
why?
because we actually like eachother and don't want to "fuck shit up"
why is it i seem to always like people i shouldn't...why can't i meet a "nice" boy that's not a drug addict or a whore?
you know...i don't even care. as i said.
i.
don't.
care.
i'm not even sure what happened in my brain...but i don't care.
me and will...seem to be on a simular plan in regards to one another-love eachothers company, don't want to mess things up, don't think we're ready for what eachother could be. he likes the coke as much if not more than i...definatly has the access more than i(by choice) so that gives him an edge i'm glad i don't have. i could see it, if being a 12H thing frequently bad thing...i'mokay with a few lines from time to time...but that...definatly not. so we'll see...but nothing soon. i'm glad we got to talk a bit.
but the reality of it is: i don't think i want anything now...
...?
i don't think i'm in the frame of mind to do that. ask me two weeks ago...yeah? what happened? i think i remembered that i don't care. i want to wake up to swing and rhapsody everyday...i want to eat baby carrots with my lover, i want soy lattes, i want sunflowers brought to my job...i want...stupid things that make me happy. random crazy texts at 3am telling me...things...
you know..it doesnt matter...everyone is and isn't game.
i'm too much of a sugar addict to care anymore what's going on as long as i have arm candy.