"The greatest thing to ever learn, is to love and to be loved in return."

[theultimatum]

These will be the hardest days of my life. To choose between another destination with my first love and my family. As some of you may know by now, soon, i was planning on moving to florida with my beautiful boyfriend of...almost 8 months now. My family knows. They have failed to tell me how much they dislike the idea until last night. My whole decision weighs on the thoughts of my immediate family. If you know me, you know my life revolves around my sisters. Kelleigh, Jeanne, and Sarah are my life. Other than my mother, they took a LARGE part in raising me. Sisters have this incredible, unbreakable bond that is so unique and i cherish it more than anything...until chris came along. It may sound harsh and weird, but chris is the first thing to come along that has made me truly happy...besides my sisters. I cant believe that im actually having to choose my family or a boy.
I woke up this morning with a feeling of complete loss. I feel like i have lost a huge part of me. chris and i are still together and i am still in california with my sisters. i havent lost anything yet...
I still think im too young to go to another state to start a new life with a boy. My heart is literally in two right now.

WHAT THE FUCK IS GOING ON, I M CATELIN...IM THE BITCHY GIRL WHO NORMALLY LAUGHS AT THE OTHER GIRLS WHEN THEY FREAK OUT ABOUT LOSING A BOY.

I really cant do this. I never thought i would have to go through something like this. i do not wish this feeling on ANYONE.

I never thought i would ever say i needed a boy. But i really need christopher right now.