i'm tired of being down, i got no fight

[theuglytrueth]

i just don't know anymore
i don't know how to smile
i don't know what i should be feeling
i don't know why i'm still breathing
i don't know why i always fuck things up

these past weeks, i've been a zombie
wake up, go to school, come home, go to bed, wake up, and the cycle repents
over and over and over and over and over..
i'm not living anymore..
i'm just a body now.. there's no soul or heart inside

FUCK

i'll never get over you..
and without you, i'm everything i try so hard not to be

i can't even laugh or cry anymore
i'm just a straight face with moving lips, and lifeless eyes
connected to a roaming figure that is slowly just falling apart

all our lives we're just waiting to die..
but i'm dead already, so i'm fucking waiting to live

i thought about suicide
i thought about it for weeks now
i just can't do it,, i just can't

i don't need an airbubble in my veins, or a slit in my throat to feel dead
i just got to wake up in the morning, and feel that complete and udderly emptiness
that is devouring me...

i'm back to square one
............................

we fell in love
i fell deeper
and you climbed out
you climbed out
just in time
to realise
all this falling
has only gotten us
scraped knees and bruised ego's

bgw denovembruary10792372864294/ 2006