Bad Dog
I woke up hours before my alarm this morning and realized that I forgot to do my online homework last night before midnight. I've really been dropping the ball lately, making bad decisions, kicking myself. I sometimes go into self-sabotage mode as a way of validating what I see as imminent failure. I've been swimming in it since the breakup. It repossesses all of my daily joy and places it in the context of anxiety about what I should be doing and would be happy to be getting done. So not doing things is a great source of unhappiness and isn't helping achieve anything.
I'm making lists. Today I will not act as if I'm working in negative time. I'm not doing the homework I was supposed to have done last weekend. It's simply the homework I have to do now. I guess I'll get on that. Yeah, like, right now.
I'm making lists. Today I will not act as if I'm working in negative time. I'm not doing the homework I was supposed to have done last weekend. It's simply the homework I have to do now. I guess I'll get on that. Yeah, like, right now.