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sooooo i went to pleasant hill this weekend and chloe and i drank... a lot. saturday i went shopping for my sister's baby shower and got a gift from my mom to them cuz she is sooo broke. poor mom! then we went to a rather disappointing party and left early. watched The Hole with curtis eric and frank. then got up early sunday and went to my sister's baby shower where there were positives and negatives. i won every baby shower game and i am the only girl there who hasn't had kids yet. hahaha! but i didnt get all the prizes :( but that's okay. eric won some chocolate and i got a gift card to cold stone's. sweet! literally! anyway, ever since my bro's wedding when i see my family i get a little depressed. mainly cuz i feel like it's broken.
i try to avoid blogging about it but seriously yesterday was the last straw. ever since the wedding i have been trying to get in touch with my bro. ive emailed, texted, called, voice mailed, myspace messaged, and even messaged his friends, to try to get in touch with him. My mom says he's busy. which i totally believe he is but i'm sure he could spare 3-5 mins to call me and say, "hey i've been super busy and will catch up with you the moment i can!" he wasn't there at the baby shower and do you know why? he went to a raider game with dad. now i understand that dad is getting old and grandpa is too and he wants to spend time with them. but seriously, my sister was hurt. and it makes me sooo angry. i know his wife hates me (and am now suspecting she doesn't care for my sis either) and because of that as well as a prior incident the feeling is mutual, but seriously, if i died he would probably not be allowed to go to my funeral and when my mom asks why he'll say he was busy. grrrrowl! what happened? we used to be best buds. i mean even when i moved out sure we talked less (he started dating her shortly after i moved out but it could just be a coincidence) but at least we'd see/talk to each other once in a while and it would feel like nothing had changed and all was still good. i bet he doesnt even know where i live or what my job is(unless of course he reads this.). gah!
all i know is thanksgiving is gonna be awkward as hell (thats if he even shows).
ok my vent is over. carry on.
i try to avoid blogging about it but seriously yesterday was the last straw. ever since the wedding i have been trying to get in touch with my bro. ive emailed, texted, called, voice mailed, myspace messaged, and even messaged his friends, to try to get in touch with him. My mom says he's busy. which i totally believe he is but i'm sure he could spare 3-5 mins to call me and say, "hey i've been super busy and will catch up with you the moment i can!" he wasn't there at the baby shower and do you know why? he went to a raider game with dad. now i understand that dad is getting old and grandpa is too and he wants to spend time with them. but seriously, my sister was hurt. and it makes me sooo angry. i know his wife hates me (and am now suspecting she doesn't care for my sis either) and because of that as well as a prior incident the feeling is mutual, but seriously, if i died he would probably not be allowed to go to my funeral and when my mom asks why he'll say he was busy. grrrrowl! what happened? we used to be best buds. i mean even when i moved out sure we talked less (he started dating her shortly after i moved out but it could just be a coincidence) but at least we'd see/talk to each other once in a while and it would feel like nothing had changed and all was still good. i bet he doesnt even know where i live or what my job is(unless of course he reads this.). gah!
all i know is thanksgiving is gonna be awkward as hell (thats if he even shows).
ok my vent is over. carry on.