hahaha
so i dropped gabi off at school and went driving for a while. I drove all the way to fremont and thought i saw my ex and almost crashed! go me! fremont's a dangerous place for me... so many people there who were once friends but now, after thousands of rumors (which include: rehab, stripping, death, jail, prostitute, and my personal favorite, gay) all despise me.
gah i hate it when i think bout my ex. its not like i think about him exactly. i think about high school, and all my old friends, how many i had and how many people i thought i made an impact on, how many smiles were a result of me being a dork, the hangouts we had and stories we told others, smelling things at walmart, singing some terrible japanese song in front of starbucks... the whole time i thought all my friends liked me because i was me. its a pretty hard slap in the face when you realize none of them really liked you and the majority of your fond memories were faked... reading over it it really seems like i should be thankful things went the way they went. but i still get sad sometimes about it even though i know im better off.
EEEEEEEEEMMMMMMMMMMMMMOOOOOOOOO!
eric just called and now i feel better! he and barry are gonna come to dublin and take me out to dinner. huzzah! if we go to starbucks we'll have a dance party (listen to the music outside of ANY starbucks and you'll know exactly what i am talking about!)!
...my feet smell...
gah i hate it when i think bout my ex. its not like i think about him exactly. i think about high school, and all my old friends, how many i had and how many people i thought i made an impact on, how many smiles were a result of me being a dork, the hangouts we had and stories we told others, smelling things at walmart, singing some terrible japanese song in front of starbucks... the whole time i thought all my friends liked me because i was me. its a pretty hard slap in the face when you realize none of them really liked you and the majority of your fond memories were faked... reading over it it really seems like i should be thankful things went the way they went. but i still get sad sometimes about it even though i know im better off.
EEEEEEEEEMMMMMMMMMMMMMOOOOOOOOO!
eric just called and now i feel better! he and barry are gonna come to dublin and take me out to dinner. huzzah! if we go to starbucks we'll have a dance party (listen to the music outside of ANY starbucks and you'll know exactly what i am talking about!)!
...my feet smell...