in the past few weeks

[thetweakedone19]

this is th worst ive felt in a long wile. 4 girls that i want to b with.jerica n erin are really good friends that i care alought bout. and id want to fuck that up again. clerindia and i have been talking alought in the past few months. for a wile i wants to be with her again but then i rmemebered bout another tha ti have wanted to give a chance. everything tha ti hhave been doing to clerindia in the past year i really dont have the right to even talk to her but i know she does still like me. i hate my self for doing ne of it. thers also sara that ive known for a wile and like somewhat. everything with her just feels right for me and wes u kow what i meen by that. but saras bf right now treats her like shit. he fucks around with other girls behid her back the lies to her bout it when she hears it from a someone. just thought i would get this out in the open so ppl ca know ans mabye stop beeing mad at me. i know what i am doing is hurting the ones that i care bout. but i cant help or stop the way i feel bout ppl. i never ment to play with an emotion as strong as love i just have to find my path in life.

in this long and loonely journsy of mine i know i have hurt many ppl and donr manny things that im not proud of. if u that are my true friends can forgive me for what i have done and what i will do in the feture i will do my best to do the things that will make and keep u all happy. to kill my life of joy and happyness to see the smyle on the face of one i care bout is, to me, the best thing i can do for my friends. and i hope after all of this i can see u all at my side still there willing to die fior me just as i would do for ne and all of you.

p.s. all comments can plz come fron your heart not your mind.

tweak out