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everyday of my life is crushing me. i keep having this dream that cooper is still alive and then i wake up and realize it was a dream. it feels so real. like i see him and pet him and i can feel it. like hes there with me while i sleep and i wake up and think where did he go? then i remember. everynight. and for the first time i actually thought he was still here and i went outback looking for him then thought oops.it depresses me. like some of me just wants to forget him but then most of me is like no! and i know i cant forget him and i dont want to but i just can't stop crying.