of endings and new beginnings...
So here I am in the computer lab at school its 3:30 in the morning I have been here since about 4:30pm. I am the only one left. I am listening to Boards Of Canada in hopes of drowning out the sound of the printer (which makes me anxious as hell) and to drown out the sounds of people in the hall way seeing as though there shouldnt really be any... I get scared easily... stupid media.
All my work is finally done... It was done a few hours ago actually. I am just taking time to settle, let things sink in and get my thoughts, files and fonts in order... I feel so strange... I can't believe this is my last "all nighter" in a computer lab *for school at least. I mean its hectic and draining but I have really enjoyed it. It has been my life for the last 4 years... I really miss flcc, and jess, curt & nanni, Pat & Jen, Gary, Liz... All the great people I met there... They seem so far away... I can't believe its been 2 years since I was there. And given I didnt get that attached to this place but I am comfortable and I don't like the thought of leaving it all behind... I am really scared of not being able to surround myself with creative young enegrgetic people... a plentiful resource here that until recently I severely overlooked... Such is life I suppose. I am also scared of leaving the comfort of having a computer lab ready at hand... Nice/working Macs, all the software I need, scanners, printers, and people to give me their opinions. What will I have after tomorrow? A PC from the 90s that more often than not gives me the blue screen of death... *sigh
I do like the idea of being paid for my art... but at what cost?
I am a very confident person in general but I am quite defensive about my work... I have been getting better about showing it to people but not to the point I should be to be able to function in an interview comfortably...
I printed up some grad announcements. They are way prettier than the expensive lame ones I got from Buff state.
Graduation is this weekend. I am excited but anxious... Its all happening so fast. (pms is not helping...)
My parents are coming up of course. And I was recently informed that my aunt Jackie and Uncle Dick are coming up from VA. I was really quite touched by this and I really look forward to seeing them. Also everyone mentioned + Jen, Chase, and Chase's parents will be going out to dinner after graduation. That should be interesting.
ok anxious tummy is taking over... I am going to go and fret some more. wish me luck.
All my work is finally done... It was done a few hours ago actually. I am just taking time to settle, let things sink in and get my thoughts, files and fonts in order... I feel so strange... I can't believe this is my last "all nighter" in a computer lab *for school at least. I mean its hectic and draining but I have really enjoyed it. It has been my life for the last 4 years... I really miss flcc, and jess, curt & nanni, Pat & Jen, Gary, Liz... All the great people I met there... They seem so far away... I can't believe its been 2 years since I was there. And given I didnt get that attached to this place but I am comfortable and I don't like the thought of leaving it all behind... I am really scared of not being able to surround myself with creative young enegrgetic people... a plentiful resource here that until recently I severely overlooked... Such is life I suppose. I am also scared of leaving the comfort of having a computer lab ready at hand... Nice/working Macs, all the software I need, scanners, printers, and people to give me their opinions. What will I have after tomorrow? A PC from the 90s that more often than not gives me the blue screen of death... *sigh
I do like the idea of being paid for my art... but at what cost?
I am a very confident person in general but I am quite defensive about my work... I have been getting better about showing it to people but not to the point I should be to be able to function in an interview comfortably...
I printed up some grad announcements. They are way prettier than the expensive lame ones I got from Buff state.
Graduation is this weekend. I am excited but anxious... Its all happening so fast. (pms is not helping...)
My parents are coming up of course. And I was recently informed that my aunt Jackie and Uncle Dick are coming up from VA. I was really quite touched by this and I really look forward to seeing them. Also everyone mentioned + Jen, Chase, and Chase's parents will be going out to dinner after graduation. That should be interesting.
ok anxious tummy is taking over... I am going to go and fret some more. wish me luck.