Probably my last entry for a while
I leave in a week. I probably won't communicate with most of you after that for close to two years. Or maybe I will sooner, since Macedonia is pretty well-connected, after all. But still. My entire life is going to change drastically in one week, and I'm really having a hard time thinking about anything except that. So you'll have to pardon me if I'm a little bit one-tracked right now. I seem my Grandma for the last time Sunday. I'm at my Dad's. I visited Elizabeth today, and it was fun, but saying good-bye was so hard. We won't have a time like that again for a long, long while. I'm going to miss her so much.
And then I keep thinking, what if I die? I know it's morbid, but I'm a little freaked out about this whole thing. What if there's a plane crash, and I never make it home? I don't really think anything else would happen. Macedonia sounds like a really safe place (one of Mom's co-workers was born there and visits, I met her yesterday). So I don't think anything would happen there. And I know people fly over the ocean every day, every hour even, maybe, and I know plenty of international flights happen, and I also know that even though that Bin Laden character has been putting out videos, everything is mostly safe (at least, I think it is, right?). But I'm still nervous, mostly because you know, I really don't want to die. I'm really enjoying this thing called life, and I just don't want it to end any time soon! But I figure...maybe it's a way to meet guys. I'll just coyly say, "Oh, plane rides make me so nervous, won't you hold my hand?". And then BAM.
HaHA! According to Anne-Marie, maybe it will be a big BAM! Haha, don't worry Liz, I won't cheat on you. And also, I'm still really sorry about the story, please don't be mad at me! I'm giving you puppy eyes!
So yeah. Really, I can't think of anything else right now, except going to Macedonia and saying good-bye to my family. The former I am really excited about, and the latter I am really really upset about. This is pretty much going to be the hardest thing I've done (since going to college and leaving them, and psh, this is like for twenty times as long). But I know I can make it, I know God will be with me, and I know it will be worth it (provided I'm alive at the end, eh? And they are too!). I'm excited, I just am really dreading saying good-bye to them. I guess that's the downside to being super close to your family. Still, I don't think one could say I'm TOO close...I am, after all, going halfway around the world!
I love you all, I'm sure (well, you know, I love some of you...others of you, I like you well enough, but...you know...we haven't really reached love yet...and that's totally cool, I'm sure you don't love me either...no pressure, you know). Good luck with everything. I hope that you enjoy your life, and even though it will get you down at times, just keep going. And if I do die, and I never see you again (psh, some of you I wasn't going to see again anyway), then just know that I really enjoyed knowing you. I'll be praying for all of you. May God bless you all.
And then I keep thinking, what if I die? I know it's morbid, but I'm a little freaked out about this whole thing. What if there's a plane crash, and I never make it home? I don't really think anything else would happen. Macedonia sounds like a really safe place (one of Mom's co-workers was born there and visits, I met her yesterday). So I don't think anything would happen there. And I know people fly over the ocean every day, every hour even, maybe, and I know plenty of international flights happen, and I also know that even though that Bin Laden character has been putting out videos, everything is mostly safe (at least, I think it is, right?). But I'm still nervous, mostly because you know, I really don't want to die. I'm really enjoying this thing called life, and I just don't want it to end any time soon! But I figure...maybe it's a way to meet guys. I'll just coyly say, "Oh, plane rides make me so nervous, won't you hold my hand?". And then BAM.
HaHA! According to Anne-Marie, maybe it will be a big BAM! Haha, don't worry Liz, I won't cheat on you. And also, I'm still really sorry about the story, please don't be mad at me! I'm giving you puppy eyes!
So yeah. Really, I can't think of anything else right now, except going to Macedonia and saying good-bye to my family. The former I am really excited about, and the latter I am really really upset about. This is pretty much going to be the hardest thing I've done (since going to college and leaving them, and psh, this is like for twenty times as long). But I know I can make it, I know God will be with me, and I know it will be worth it (provided I'm alive at the end, eh? And they are too!). I'm excited, I just am really dreading saying good-bye to them. I guess that's the downside to being super close to your family. Still, I don't think one could say I'm TOO close...I am, after all, going halfway around the world!
I love you all, I'm sure (well, you know, I love some of you...others of you, I like you well enough, but...you know...we haven't really reached love yet...and that's totally cool, I'm sure you don't love me either...no pressure, you know). Good luck with everything. I hope that you enjoy your life, and even though it will get you down at times, just keep going. And if I do die, and I never see you again (psh, some of you I wasn't going to see again anyway), then just know that I really enjoyed knowing you. I'll be praying for all of you. May God bless you all.