Alone this holiday...
Today was...
A Realization?
Last night I went to bed at like 6 in the PM, and I slept the whole night through. It was...
Strange.
Went to practice with the new band today. It was chill. But I gots a little problem. I guess you can call me contradicting if you'd like, but I dont know. I dont really think I want to be in a band. Much less the lead singer of one.
You could say that I'm hard on myself, for I still believe that I'm a horrible singer. I sing with my throat. Plus, I hate the pressure that I go through because I'm a singer. Half because I put myself through so much pressure, and partly from the pressure people put me through. Peter pretty much expects me to just make something up on the spot when they're all jamming. I can't and don't write like that. I can't just come up with lyrics. I have to sit down and think it out. Come up with a melody, and then write words into that melody.
Also, I dont like theyre approach to songwriting. As I said, theyre all about jamming and writing songs from there. Many good songs do come from that, I agree, but I'm a fan of taking a riff, be it a bass line or a guitar riff, and having the band spend time building a song around that riff. It makes it a much better song, cause time was actually spent on the song, and it wasnt just created from random crazy jamming.
On a hypocritical note, I love jamming. But not as a singer.
Lastly, I just dont like this Peter guy. I dont like him at all. I dont like how controlling he is, I dont like how he belives that this band is his. I dont like his songwriting stlye, and I dont like his guitar parts. And I know he's reading this. And I'm sorry. Pete, you're a strange guy. But I, unfortunately, don't like you much.
So I've come to this conclusion. I play guitar. I'm definitely not a good "band" guitarist yet, but if I actually try to improve and shit, and I start working on learning the guitar itself, and stop getting tabs, I'll become better. However long it may take. And, I'll keep saving up my money, and when I do become a better guitarist, I'll buy myself a half stack or something. Then, I'' start/join a band as a guitarist. We'll see.
But for now, I suppose, I think I'll take a little hiatus. Just for my own sake.
On a different note, the Marlins won. Congrats all you Marlins fans. Im gonna get alot of shit for my Yankee lovin' on Monday.
I haven't seen her in ages. I wants to. And Ray Ray. Ray Ray is a cool cat. Though you cant really understand what he's saying. He's still kickin'.
Yea. Tomorrow I work. And I gotta study for an Italian test.
But I get to see her.
"The second star to the right, shines in the night for you."
A Realization?
Last night I went to bed at like 6 in the PM, and I slept the whole night through. It was...
Strange.
Went to practice with the new band today. It was chill. But I gots a little problem. I guess you can call me contradicting if you'd like, but I dont know. I dont really think I want to be in a band. Much less the lead singer of one.
You could say that I'm hard on myself, for I still believe that I'm a horrible singer. I sing with my throat. Plus, I hate the pressure that I go through because I'm a singer. Half because I put myself through so much pressure, and partly from the pressure people put me through. Peter pretty much expects me to just make something up on the spot when they're all jamming. I can't and don't write like that. I can't just come up with lyrics. I have to sit down and think it out. Come up with a melody, and then write words into that melody.
Also, I dont like theyre approach to songwriting. As I said, theyre all about jamming and writing songs from there. Many good songs do come from that, I agree, but I'm a fan of taking a riff, be it a bass line or a guitar riff, and having the band spend time building a song around that riff. It makes it a much better song, cause time was actually spent on the song, and it wasnt just created from random crazy jamming.
On a hypocritical note, I love jamming. But not as a singer.
Lastly, I just dont like this Peter guy. I dont like him at all. I dont like how controlling he is, I dont like how he belives that this band is his. I dont like his songwriting stlye, and I dont like his guitar parts. And I know he's reading this. And I'm sorry. Pete, you're a strange guy. But I, unfortunately, don't like you much.
So I've come to this conclusion. I play guitar. I'm definitely not a good "band" guitarist yet, but if I actually try to improve and shit, and I start working on learning the guitar itself, and stop getting tabs, I'll become better. However long it may take. And, I'll keep saving up my money, and when I do become a better guitarist, I'll buy myself a half stack or something. Then, I'' start/join a band as a guitarist. We'll see.
But for now, I suppose, I think I'll take a little hiatus. Just for my own sake.
On a different note, the Marlins won. Congrats all you Marlins fans. Im gonna get alot of shit for my Yankee lovin' on Monday.
I haven't seen her in ages. I wants to. And Ray Ray. Ray Ray is a cool cat. Though you cant really understand what he's saying. He's still kickin'.
Yea. Tomorrow I work. And I gotta study for an Italian test.
But I get to see her.
"The second star to the right, shines in the night for you."