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So, I know I only post when I'm in love or falling out of love.
It's not an accurate assessment of my life, but the things I feel the most passionate about in short bursts.
Because, really, my passions are wide and wild.
I love the environment, I'm going to be a scientist. It's really hard work. Taking Trig and Chemistry while dating somebody who you are crazy about is.. harder than usual.
Lemme give a little intro to Lew, though.
Dating and Love:
I ONLY ever seem to be really into people who are NOT ever going to be into me, at all.
When I date people, I don't like them. I find fault with the things they are about and find us to be a mismatched couple. But loneliness and horniness keeps me there.
But then... there is the really rare occasion. When I meet somebody and I think "Oh wow."
Those are usually reserved for people who will never be into me. But when it happens back... when we stop and see each other, and then it's all different. The entire world is changed.
I may be falling in love right now, but maybe I loved him the instant I met him? The first moment I saw him smile I declared to myself that he must be my love.
But it's so scary.
The world is still there, actually unchanged, all the problems that were there, are still there, "girl, you still have rejection issues". Coming up for air is unwanted, but stupidly necessary.
I want to get lost in this. It's so much nicer than anything else I've ever known.
Welp, off to teach Trig to myself.
It's not an accurate assessment of my life, but the things I feel the most passionate about in short bursts.
Because, really, my passions are wide and wild.
I love the environment, I'm going to be a scientist. It's really hard work. Taking Trig and Chemistry while dating somebody who you are crazy about is.. harder than usual.
Lemme give a little intro to Lew, though.
Dating and Love:
I ONLY ever seem to be really into people who are NOT ever going to be into me, at all.
When I date people, I don't like them. I find fault with the things they are about and find us to be a mismatched couple. But loneliness and horniness keeps me there.
But then... there is the really rare occasion. When I meet somebody and I think "Oh wow."
Those are usually reserved for people who will never be into me. But when it happens back... when we stop and see each other, and then it's all different. The entire world is changed.
I may be falling in love right now, but maybe I loved him the instant I met him? The first moment I saw him smile I declared to myself that he must be my love.
But it's so scary.
The world is still there, actually unchanged, all the problems that were there, are still there, "girl, you still have rejection issues". Coming up for air is unwanted, but stupidly necessary.
I want to get lost in this. It's so much nicer than anything else I've ever known.
Welp, off to teach Trig to myself.